[ gods. get it together, rondo. he nods, reaching up with his good hand to rub his arm across his eyes, sucking in a deep, shaky breath. he lets lavi look him over - it's hard to tell through his knightly layers, but he nods... ]
I did. It... burned me, but... Karlach and Miss Asa both said it would pass.
[ he can see through rondo's collar that he's bandaged up, and there's a very slight blue glow coming from even underneath the bandages. another hiccup. ] What... what about you?
[ WOW!!!! but it's like - it comes with a wet, tiny laugh, a little hysterical, because it's like he just. needs to say something to not feel like the entire world is ending, because that's kind of how it feels. ]
Don't...you shouldn't be so stubborn... what if you had gotten attacked?
[ it gets him to laugh. just a tiny, hiccuped noise of a laugh, so good job. ]
I was... trying to keep it from the others. [ he says, quietly, reaching up to touch his heart. ] I didn't want Karlach to worry... but it was - it was very painful. I'm used to it being hot, but... not like that...
[ his flaming heart except for the fact that sazantos stole the flame its fine ]
You must know that we care for you. So, please take care of yourself.
Mm... I'm used to it. After... when I got the Flame, it felt like it was burning me alive, at first. So... [ that's because it was. anyway now he has fire resistance so it's fine (says the idiot who died in the cyoa to a fire monster).
there's a little bit of another smile, just barely. ]
You don't have to apologize. I... just worry for her, too. [ because he knows htis must've made her feel. awful!!! and that was before all these great people died today!!! ]
You can be used to something and still admits that it hurts.
[RONDO. ESPECIALLY SINCE LAVI PERSONALLY KNOWS HOW TERRIBLE THIS EFFECT IS. but he's so much scolding as he is just pointing it out casually, because he also understands the need to just keep all your hurts under wraps, or carry them around until they're a part of you.]
[ he looks up... very briefly...at his bandages... ok lavi....... but it's not mean or anything, and he will take the pointed out not quite scold just fine, ducking his head a little. ]
... That's something I wish I could tell her, too. [ that you can admit it hurts. it's hard, sometimes - she's not that bad about it, but rondo has to coax her to share when she's sad, and it's a tenative thing. he cares very, very much for karlach, so. ] For everything that she's done for me, I just... I wish I could return the favor.
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I did. It... burned me, but... Karlach and Miss Asa both said it would pass.
[ he can see through rondo's collar that he's bandaged up, and there's a very slight blue glow coming from even underneath the bandages. another hiccup. ] What... what about you?
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I'm gonna head there later. I wasn't as bad off as the rest of you, so I just got bandaged and fell asleep.
[his face and head bandages are looking icky but it's fine]
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[ a little hiccup, wet. ] You look terrible.
[ WOW!!!! but it's like - it comes with a wet, tiny laugh, a little hysterical, because it's like he just. needs to say something to not feel like the entire world is ending, because that's kind of how it feels. ]
Don't...you shouldn't be so stubborn... what if you had gotten attacked?
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I thought the bandages made me look dashing.
[yeah all the stupid ones on his face and head]
But I know -- it was a stupid idea. 'Specially with our hearts. Think I almost passed out twice last night.
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I was... trying to keep it from the others. [ he says, quietly, reaching up to touch his heart. ] I didn't want Karlach to worry... but it was - it was very painful. I'm used to it being hot, but... not like that...
[ his flaming heart except for the fact that sazantos stole the flame its fine ]
You must know that we care for you. So, please take care of yourself.
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Hey, same goes for you too, mister don't worry about me. At least I almost fainted in front of a whole group of people.
[which he intensely regretted at the time but rondo doesn't need to know that]
I told Karlach about it too. Sorry. [THE JIG IS UP lavi squealed the beans]
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Mm... I'm used to it. After... when I got the Flame, it felt like it was burning me alive, at first. So... [ that's because it was. anyway now he has fire resistance so it's fine (says the idiot who died in the cyoa to a fire monster).
there's a little bit of another smile, just barely. ]
You don't have to apologize. I... just worry for her, too. [ because he knows htis must've made her feel. awful!!! and that was before all these great people died today!!! ]
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You can be used to something and still admits that it hurts.
[RONDO. ESPECIALLY SINCE LAVI PERSONALLY KNOWS HOW TERRIBLE THIS EFFECT IS. but he's so much scolding as he is just pointing it out casually, because he also understands the need to just keep all your hurts under wraps, or carry them around until they're a part of you.]
But I get it. [...] I'm worried about her too.
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... That's something I wish I could tell her, too. [ that you can admit it hurts. it's hard, sometimes - she's not that bad about it, but rondo has to coax her to share when she's sad, and it's a tenative thing. he cares very, very much for karlach, so. ] For everything that she's done for me, I just... I wish I could return the favor.
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He peers over at Rondo at that, then]
You don't think just being by her side helps?
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he considers that for a moment, sniffling. ]
...I hope it does. [ vulnerable and quiet. it just doesn't feel like enough, comparatively. ]
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I think it does, since you're you. If that makes sense.
[DOES IT.... he waits a beat, then continues]
Anyone can be strong, but you're also kind. And that combination really helps when you need someone. And I bet Karlach needs that.