[ oh... lavi can feel it, with his hands there - the way the tension in his shoulders almost collapses in relief, and he hugs the paper to his chest, for a moment, sucking in a deep breath and closing his eyes, tight. ]
Thank - thank the Flame. [ Thank the Flame, it wasn't pointless. ] We need - we need as many people to know she's alright as possible, I - thank you. Thank you for sharing this with me, Lavi.
I'll get it to the others who live in the cabin. We've been keeping a list of all of these things when we find them.
[ and it's.. it's heartening, to read, too, to know that those who left them may in fact not only really be alright, but... they're no longer trapped with the monsters, either. rondo just kind of holds the paper for a moment after that, taking in a deep breath, and letting lavi's thoughts echo momentarily in his head. ]
... [ and after a long pause. ] I... I hate that we had to gamble with someone's life. [ I feel like I can still feel the blood on my hands. ] And lie, and..
... Mr. Kanda's very angry with me, too, as - many people are. Rightfully so. I just... knowing the outcome, I... I can't say that I regret it.
Well, I know I'm glad that it worked. And hopefully still will.
[Even if it might not change anything that happened, but it does paint it in a different light. He can't fault others for taking action in the way they thought was best, not when Lavi's choice would have been to kill Camille and not tell anyone about it.]
Can I ask what made you decide? Did Vin ask for your help?
[ i hope rondo confessing was the least surprising thing in the entire world. mr i choose hope over here
anyway, he nods a little. ]
...Mmm. I was talking to her about it, Saturday, after I spoke with War and Pesti about the matter. And we knew... something had to be done, and I suggested - I had an idea about maybe trying to talk to Miss Camille first, to see if we could figure out what she wanted to do.
Vin brought the group of us together, and...we hashed it out from there. We spent... a long time debating the right thing to do, and how to do it, and who would be the one to do so, and we talked to the Overseers to go over different parts of the plan. And... though we weren't able to talk to Miss Camille, for a number of reasons, we were able to make it as quick as we possibly could.
[ .... ]
The spiders were not intentional, we - didn't leave her anywhere near them. [ but oocly it was funny ]
[I wonder if it's because of Nona... That Vin had decided to ask for help for Camille in particular. Not that Vin had seemed unaffected after his conversation with her after that trial.
But he listens carefully to Rondo, huffing a little at the mention of spiders.]
Seemed like the kind of thing that would happen here.
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What was using the item like? You didn't have to like -- do another ritual for it, right? Or bleed for it?
[Like the lock on that door that cut your hand...]
Thankfully, no... I just had to use it. [ the mods did not tell me how it worked ] But... as soon as I held it, I could tell it was going to work. I wasn't able to get to it for a few days, but...
[ IT WORKED!!! which is what mattered. our camille... ]
Truthfully, I'm just relieved that everything went to plan. Whatever comes next, I'll deal with accordingly...
[ ah... that gets a little smile, too. ] Don't worry. I'm lucky to be surrounded by so many kind, wonderful people. There's not a moment here I've ever felt alone.
[ even as lavi's thoughts echo back, he doesn't waver away from that either, tired but accepting. And if someone decides to exact vengeance on me for it, then so be it. ]
[ OH!!! WAIT he immediately waves his hands, flustering: ]
Oh! No, no - nothing like that, sorry, nothing in specific! It's more like, you know, if someone gets possessed or something... I don't think anyone here would do that on purpose.
I don't think Caelus would have tried to frame Kanda if he wasn't possessed either, but it doesn't change the fact that he did. But he had a reason to be mad at Kanda, so maybe the monster aggression exploited that or whatever.
[he says it matter-of-factly though, then]
M'not gonna speak for Yuffie -- [she has the right to feel however she wants to feel about you guys and Camille] but Kanda won't be like Caelus, possessed or not.
That's what I mean. [ moreso that their companions are more likely to do wild shit because they're possessed or influenced, not so much that they'd just do it. ]
And - I believe that, too, of course. He's scrupulous... that much is clear. [ That is one of the very clearest things about Mr. Kanda. ] I would never think he'd do such a thing - I wouldn't ascribe it to anyone.
[ as for yuffie, though he just kind of... frowns a little, but nods... ] I... can't say I even would have thought of Miss Yuffie, even if I were thinking of names, either... but - I have faith in the people here, as a whole. It is only the monsters that worry me.
Even if I were to perish for this, it would be fine. Miss Camille is safe, now. That's what matters.
[Lavi just looks at Rondo, and previously his expression had been pretty calm while he was listening, but at the end -- his expression twists into annoyance, puffs of little white smoke emit from his head animal crossing style.]
It wouldn't be fine.
I like Cami a lot, but if you die because of this, then I'll be seriously pissed at you and her, the others, and most of all -- at this stupid shitty cult that trapped us all here in the first place. Even more pissed at the cult, actually.
[ NOOO AWWW.... this makes him laugh, even if it's the silly animal crossing emotes, even if he's very serious - it just makes him feel a little touched, and he smiles down at his lap. ]
Heh. That makes two of us! I'd be a soul stuck in hell with all my unfinished business. [ rondo wiggles his fingers. ooooh scawwy....
but more seriously: ] I don't want to die. I promise. I... already might have, at home, so... if this is my second chance, I want to protect all of you in every way that I can. And - I want to find a way for everyone to make it out, and... maybe I'll find a way to live, too.
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Thank - thank the Flame. [ Thank the Flame, it wasn't pointless. ] We need - we need as many people to know she's alright as possible, I - thank you. Thank you for sharing this with me, Lavi.
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[He keeps his hand there a moment longer. I know you're strong, but don't carry it all on your own.]
Shared it with Gale just now too, so it should reach everyone else soon.
[just because gale is a talker...]
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I'll get it to the others who live in the cabin. We've been keeping a list of all of these things when we find them.
[ and it's.. it's heartening, to read, too, to know that those who left them may in fact not only really be alright, but... they're no longer trapped with the monsters, either. rondo just kind of holds the paper for a moment after that, taking in a deep breath, and letting lavi's thoughts echo momentarily in his head. ]
... [ and after a long pause. ] I... I hate that we had to gamble with someone's life. [ I feel like I can still feel the blood on my hands. ] And lie, and..
... Mr. Kanda's very angry with me, too, as - many people are. Rightfully so. I just... knowing the outcome, I... I can't say that I regret it.
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[Even if it might not change anything that happened, but it does paint it in a different light. He can't fault others for taking action in the way they thought was best, not when Lavi's choice would have been to kill Camille and not tell anyone about it.]
Can I ask what made you decide? Did Vin ask for your help?
[I heard her say she planned it.]
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anyway, he nods a little. ]
...Mmm. I was talking to her about it, Saturday, after I spoke with War and Pesti about the matter. And we knew... something had to be done, and I suggested - I had an idea about maybe trying to talk to Miss Camille first, to see if we could figure out what she wanted to do.
Vin brought the group of us together, and...we hashed it out from there. We spent... a long time debating the right thing to do, and how to do it, and who would be the one to do so, and we talked to the Overseers to go over different parts of the plan. And... though we weren't able to talk to Miss Camille, for a number of reasons, we were able to make it as quick as we possibly could.
[ .... ]
The spiders were not intentional, we - didn't leave her anywhere near them. [ but oocly it was funny ]
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But he listens carefully to Rondo, huffing a little at the mention of spiders.]
Seemed like the kind of thing that would happen here.
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What was using the item like? You didn't have to like -- do another ritual for it, right? Or bleed for it?
[Like the lock on that door that cut your hand...]
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Thankfully, no... I just had to use it. [ the mods did not tell me how it worked ] But... as soon as I held it, I could tell it was going to work. I wasn't able to get to it for a few days, but...
[ IT WORKED!!! which is what mattered. our camille... ]
Truthfully, I'm just relieved that everything went to plan. Whatever comes next, I'll deal with accordingly...
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I FORGOT ABOUT MY GAG TAG
[Whether it's out of guilt or cause you wanna protect the rest.]
HELP ME WHY IS IT STILL THERE
[ even as lavi's thoughts echo back, he doesn't waver away from that either, tired but accepting. And if someone decides to exact vengeance on me for it, then so be it. ]
Thank you, Lavi.
a gift.....
that thought is audible enough that Lavi can't really ignore it, so he looks back at Rondo, eyebrow raised.]
Are you talking about Yuffie or Kanda?
th... thank you for this gift
[ OH!!! WAIT he immediately waves his hands, flustering: ]
Oh! No, no - nothing like that, sorry, nothing in specific! It's more like, you know, if someone gets possessed or something... I don't think anyone here would do that on purpose.
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[he says it matter-of-factly though, then]
M'not gonna speak for Yuffie -- [she has the right to feel however she wants to feel about you guys and Camille] but Kanda won't be like Caelus, possessed or not.
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That's what I mean. [ moreso that their companions are more likely to do wild shit because they're possessed or influenced, not so much that they'd just do it. ]
And - I believe that, too, of course. He's scrupulous... that much is clear. [ That is one of the very clearest things about Mr. Kanda. ] I would never think he'd do such a thing - I wouldn't ascribe it to anyone.
[ as for yuffie, though he just kind of... frowns a little, but nods... ] I... can't say I even would have thought of Miss Yuffie, even if I were thinking of names, either... but - I have faith in the people here, as a whole. It is only the monsters that worry me.
Even if I were to perish for this, it would be fine. Miss Camille is safe, now. That's what matters.
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It wouldn't be fine.
I like Cami a lot, but if you die because of this, then I'll be seriously pissed at you and her, the others, and most of all -- at this stupid shitty cult that trapped us all here in the first place. Even more pissed at the cult, actually.
[HE'S ALREADY ANNOYED AT THE CULT]
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Heh. That makes two of us! I'd be a soul stuck in hell with all my unfinished business. [ rondo wiggles his fingers. ooooh scawwy....
but more seriously: ] I don't want to die. I promise. I... already might have, at home, so... if this is my second chance, I want to protect all of you in every way that I can. And - I want to find a way for everyone to make it out, and... maybe I'll find a way to live, too.