ashlyn... kanda's only friend

[bookpapers]

she's so cute (pleading)

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[killies]

Not sure. It wouldn't be an optimal use of time to look into it, even if it does.

... But then again, we might not get another chance, later.

[bookpapers]

At least it's still three bodies.

[bleak]

...And if she doesn't show, then we'll just focus on what we can.

[killies]

Hopefully it's less chaotic at the end...

[bookpapers]

[he looks at ashlyn.................]

[killies]

Let me dream...

[bookpapers]

[puts his hands together]

I'll pray for it too.

[killies]

That usually do you any good...?

[bookpapers]

Not really....

[killies]

Didn't think so...

[bookpapers]

I've never been a 'hope' kinda guy... But you already knew that.

[killies]

... It did surprise me, though.

[bookpapers]

...Cause you thought I'd want to rescue her?

[killies]

Yeah.

[bookpapers]

[...]

I can be a nice guy. Actually -- I prefer to be, so that people think that I am. It's easier that way.

But I wanted information more than I wanted to keep pretending. Kind of messed up, huh?

[killies]

I voted the same as you, so I don't think it's that messed up.

[bookpapers]

[he grins at that]

True, but you've been like that from the start. Pragmatic, and always keeping an eye out.

I admire people who can just be themselves.

[killies]

Being anything else just sounds exhausting.

It's not like you have to bother with that sort of thing.

[bookpapers]

Would you like me as much if I didn't?

[he asks.... as if ashlyn likes him a lot right now....]

[killies]

You're pretty annoying right now, so.

[ JUST SAYS IT... but after a pause adds: ]

Also... who cares what people think of you?

[bookpapers]

[he laughs at that, a short genuine burst of cheer which should be out of place considering DEATH and MURDER.... though he calms down at her question, looking thoughtful]

It's a little complicated, but... basically, I have to be someone who can get along with anyone. But not to the point where they'll miss me or think about me much when I'm gone.

I've been like this since I was six, so it's just become a habit now.

[killies]

Wouldn't most people miss someone who's friendly more than someone who's not?

[ this ignores that he said he needs to get along with people first but whatever. ]

[bookpapers]

[thinks about this]

You'd think so, but... from my experience, they don't miss me very much. They might wonder what happened to me, but it doesn't take long to forget about me.

[killies]

Do you have to move around a lot?

[bookpapers]

[he nods]

I travel full-time! The longest place I've stayed at is the Order, where Kanda and I work.

[killies]

How long have you been there?