[ But we'll let the shadows explains. When they appear, Lavi will find himself in the hallway of a high school, with a woman explaining to him how cursed spirits are created.
When Tsukumo shares the information with you—that only non-sorcerers can create the cursed spirits that are responsible for the deaths of so many sorcerers—the thoughts that you've been having spill out without you being able to stop them.
Because you're tired, and you're alone. The life of a sorcerer is nothing but mission after mission, swallowing the disgusting taste of cursed spirits one after the other, your sanity and health both slipping piece by piece. You're tired of sacrificing yourself, and, no matter how impossible it feels, you would give anything for it to stop. ]
[...It's really not so different, Lavi thinks when the memory recedes, of how an Exorcist feels. Geto's exhaustion and desire for it all to stop -- at trying to find a solution that doesn't involve whittling himself away for a problem humanity is responsible for. How many times has he seen it before? Lenalee, screaming about how much she hates the Innocence -- Kanda, who could have escaped life's tragedies if Akuma did not exist.
Exorcists must save humanity, must serve God. But all Exorcists are trained to view humanity as the Earl's allies -- and Lavi is no exception.]
[ He feels like Lavi kind of gets it, so she doesn't shy away. ]
... Being a sorcerer in a family of non-sorcerers kind of sucks. No one believes you when you say you can see things other people can't, and you spend a long time wondering if you're crazy.
So I thought there must be a reason for it all. A purpose that's worth it: protecting people.
We don't have that many of us either. About thirteen for the thousands of Akuma out there. Well, eleven now.
[since lavi is chaired or whatever. he flexes his hands, then]
I'm not a sorcerer like you, but. I get the feeling. When the fighting's too much, but there's no other way out. When you know the reason why, but you can't do anything about it.
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peers at him]
I know it can't be helped. [cause it's human NATURE] Still annoying though.
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Sometimes I think the Earth would be better with them wiped out.
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...For the same reason? Or because of the curses too?
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[ But we'll let the shadows explains. When they appear, Lavi will find himself in the hallway of a high school, with a woman explaining to him how cursed spirits are created.
Maybe you should just get rid of all non-sorcerers.
Because you're tired, and you're alone. The life of a sorcerer is nothing but mission after mission, swallowing the disgusting taste of cursed spirits one after the other, your sanity and health both slipping piece by piece. You're tired of sacrificing yourself, and, no matter how impossible it feels, you would give anything for it to stop. ]
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Exorcists must save humanity, must serve God. But all Exorcists are trained to view humanity as the Earl's allies -- and Lavi is no exception.]
Why did you become a sorcerer?
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... Being a sorcerer in a family of non-sorcerers kind of sucks. No one believes you when you say you can see things other people can't, and you spend a long time wondering if you're crazy.
So I thought there must be a reason for it all. A purpose that's worth it: protecting people.
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not geto being allen coded damn]
You guys are still in training, right? [school....] But you're still sent on missions?
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Anyway. ]
It's a technical college, so we learn by doing.
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hm. don't like that!]
...How many students get to graduate?
[what's the survival rate here.... 1 out of 50000....]
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Maybe two or three a year? Classes are usually only five to two students. It's a small population.
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We don't have that many of us either. About thirteen for the thousands of Akuma out there. Well, eleven now.
[since lavi is chaired or whatever. he flexes his hands, then]
I'm not a sorcerer like you, but. I get the feeling. When the fighting's too much, but there's no other way out. When you know the reason why, but you can't do anything about it.
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So what then?
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...Wish I could tell you.
[...]
All I know is that my friends are still fighting, so I want to keep fighting with 'em.
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[ save them today so that they might die tomorrow ]
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If it means turning us into enemies, then... I don't want that. I can't help them in that way, even if means saving their lives.
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You don't want to change the world then, just be with your friends.
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And what about you? You don't have to change it either.
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I guess not. But the life of a sorcerer is kind of lonely. We don't get to keep much company either.
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You guys aren't together back home?
[he means as friends not anything gay unfortunately tch]
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He's the strongest sorcerer of our generation, so he's always in the field.
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Maybe there's a way to change that? He said that he'd change a lot about the way you guys operate if he was in charge.
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He told you that?
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[AND HOW SHITTY THEY ArE]
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