[He's had this memory replay a few times now, but with Aqua... He can feel the meaning of it shift, especially with what she's told him. Of darkness, and of having to fight comrades who fell.
So he doesn't mind explaining the rest of the memory for her, because in a way this isn't only about him. It's to sate Aqua's concern,]
...Yeah. Managed to break out of it in time. Had to stab myself in the heart to do it, but it shocked me awake.
[ah]
I'm fine now though! ...My friends didn't give up on me.
I'm sorry you were made to hurt your friends. But I'm glad they didn't give up. I'm glad you didn't, either.
[ it takes as much resolve to struggle back against the clutches of darkness, to inflict enough damage to his own heart in order to bring it back at all.
it takes resolve to say everything is fine, even when it isn't. ]
lavi will receive a memory of a dear friend, someone who had lost himself to darkness. she will turn her weapon against him, and she will fall into darkness to save him. (2:42:23 - 2:45:02, or 2:46:25)! ]
It's similar, and very different from fighting an Akuma, from fighting his own friends. This time, he's seeing it from the other side, from someone who hasn't lost herself, determinedly on, trying to reach someone precious to her.
It's how it ends that makes him look at her, wide-eyed, once the memory ends.]
You... [she'd saved her friend, but] Is that what you meant when you said you got separated from them?
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So he doesn't mind explaining the rest of the memory for her, because in a way this isn't only about him. It's to sate Aqua's concern,]
...Yeah. Managed to break out of it in time. Had to stab myself in the heart to do it, but it shocked me awake.
[ah]
I'm fine now though! ...My friends didn't give up on me.
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[ ... ]
I'm sorry you were made to hurt your friends. But I'm glad they didn't give up. I'm glad you didn't, either.
[ it takes as much resolve to struggle back against the clutches of darkness, to inflict enough damage to his own heart in order to bring it back at all.
it takes resolve to say everything is fine, even when it isn't. ]
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it's not one of his proudest moments, when he thinks back on it. just another failure, and a reminder that he's still too weak, but.]
Thanks. Lenalee punched me so hard after -- she made me see stars.
[as he deserves]
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She's just making sure it doesn't happen again.
...Though I suspect she might punch you a second time, for making her worry.
[ by being here, she means. going missing. (she doesn't... know...) ]
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She'll punch Kanda first!
[SO CONFIDENTLY...... even though he'll get punched second... also gimme aqua memory shakes you]
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lavi will receive a memory of a dear friend, someone who had lost himself to darkness. she will turn her weapon against him, and she will fall into darkness to save him. (2:42:23 - 2:45:02, or 2:46:25)! ]
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It's similar, and very different from fighting an Akuma, from fighting his own friends. This time, he's seeing it from the other side, from someone who hasn't lost herself, determinedly on, trying to reach someone precious to her.
It's how it ends that makes him look at her, wide-eyed, once the memory ends.]
You... [she'd saved her friend, but] Is that what you meant when you said you got separated from them?
[INTO AN ETERNAL ABYSS???]
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but ah, she can only nod to that. ]
...Yes. I've been trapped in the Realm of Darkness for a long time, now.
[ she didn't fall endlessly... she landed at some point, and has been walking ever since. ]
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his brow is furrowed and he looks extremely concerned!!!! he doesn't like that!!!!]
Aqua... [...] What was it like?
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...Time doesn't pass there, so it felt like walking through an endless dream. [ nightmare. ] You start to question yourself, and the bonds you have.
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also this sounds terrifying. what the fck.]
How'd you keep yourself sane?
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[ she fishes into a sleeve and holds out her wayfinder charm for him to see. ]
This was one of the few things I had with me in the darkness. I'd made matching charms for my best friends, too, before we left home.
There's magic in them that keeps us connected, and it was a reminder for me, the times I felt like I couldn't keep going.
[ though of course, it's a bit more than just that. a steady resolve, and a heart filled with light. ]
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...Then I'm glad it came here with you.
[beeguns you if you didn't bring it as aqua's personal ITEM]
It looks real nice. I didn't know you could do crafts, but I'm not surprised after our bouquets.