[ she tries to be. she flips out and causes huge messes and has to clean up real good to hide it and pretend it never happens. ]
It's because I'm more responsible than most of my sisters. Two would cheerfully run off doing whatever makes her happiest, Three fell asleep anywhere and doesn't pick up after herself, and Five throws and tosses everything she's no longer interested in aside like a flighty slob.
four will tell anyone and everyone she loves her sisters. she will tell them she loves her sisters more than anything (else). there are simply things they can improve. ]
It was... [ it is almost too easy to give the answers she always gives, the one she would give were she alive. ] It could have been worse. We were all we had.
[ four doesn't quite smile, but there's something both hysterical yet empty to how light her voice is. ]
We had to be apart to rule over all the lands we freed.
[ because even if four is horrible at her core, the lords she and her sisters killed truly did oppress their people. ]
And... the only one who would have been powerful enough to kill any of us was Zero, and none of us expected her so soon.
[ it's not that her family made her feel alone, not really, even if four did wish they could go back to the way they used to be, the way they were in her false memories. ]
It was before that. I don't know what changed, but it seemed so sudden. One day, she was caring for us, the next, she was saying she wanted to kill us all.
[ zero has always wanted to kill them, but four doesn't know that. ]
Sorry, I know dwelling on it can do more harm than good. [spiraling in the what-ifs of things you can't confirm now that you're dead? lavi's Done That Before,]
...But you can always vent to me about it, if you want to.
[he dramatically waves his hand, but the smile on his face ruins the effect. he'll lead the way outside, picking up skates along the way. he'll put his on and also help four with the laces for hers if she lets him,]
Think it's been years for me. I've traveled plenty during the winter, but I've never had the time during my missions.
[though there was that one time he made a snowman before Allen ran off dramatically,]
she tries standing on the skates and because she's op, she doesn't topple over but her balance isn't there yet. it takes a bit adjustment, but she takes careful steps towards the lake. ]
[though the irony that they can only do this because they're dead doesn't escape him, he glances at her with a grin, then places a skate on the ice, pushing off almost immediately -- though he turns to come back to where Four is,]
[ four is letting it escape her because she doesn't want to think about how being dead is what makes this happen.
she smiles a little but shakes her head. ]
I won't be so weak as to need that.
[ she can't let herself be like that. she's slow to start once she's on the ice, but she gets the hang of it. it's a little wobbly, but she isn't falling yet.
at least not until the ice looks like it's starting to crack. ]
[hm!!!! that's bad!!! Lavi looks down, the sound alerting him, and sees the cracks form under their skates. ]
-- Shit!
[Shit. Survival(?) training kicks in, and he pivots on his skates and grabs for Four's hand, letting his acceleration pull him along towards the shore, to hopefully, SAFETY]
[ she glides along with him, but she looks back behind them at the ice as they go. she doesn't want to freeze, but dying is only temporary when you're already dead.
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[ her grievances. ]
I would have liked this a lot sooner. Messes set me on edge.
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[he's suddenly thankful that four has never seen his and bixing's room,]
Is that cause you were in charge back home? Like a ruler's responsibility...?
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[ she tries to be. she flips out and causes huge messes and has to clean up real good to hide it and pretend it never happens. ]
It's because I'm more responsible than most of my sisters. Two would cheerfully run off doing whatever makes her happiest, Three fell asleep anywhere and doesn't pick up after herself, and Five throws and tosses everything she's no longer interested in aside like a flighty slob.
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[EVEN IF FOUR DOESN'T LIKE HER SISTERS, though sometimes there's a very thin line between love and hate?]
Even though it must have been a pain. [the funniest thing is that he's thinking of itto, two is just itto right now]
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four will tell anyone and everyone she loves her sisters. she will tell them she loves her sisters more than anything (else). there are simply things they can improve. ]
It was... [ it is almost too easy to give the answers she always gives, the one she would give were she alive. ] It could have been worse. We were all we had.
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But he doesn't want to make assumptions when it comes to Four. She's such a private person, and he feels more patient when he's around her.]
You can have a family and still feel alone.
[So maybe it could have been worse, but families can still be bad.]
And I don't remember seeing them there with you.
[at her death]
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We had to be apart to rule over all the lands we freed.
[ because even if four is horrible at her core, the lords she and her sisters killed truly did oppress their people. ]
And... the only one who would have been powerful enough to kill any of us was Zero, and none of us expected her so soon.
[ it's not that her family made her feel alone, not really, even if four did wish they could go back to the way they used to be, the way they were in her false memories. ]
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...When did she make her intentions clear? After you guys replaced the last rulers?
[Or had she always wanted to kill Four and the others?]
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It was before that. I don't know what changed, but it seemed so sudden. One day, she was caring for us, the next, she was saying she wanted to kill us all.
[ zero has always wanted to kill them, but four doesn't know that. ]
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Maybe she was possessed by something -- or maybe it's someone else wearing her body. [he realizes that sounds incredibly specific,] Like an Akuma.
Can something like that happen in your world?
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she's quiet for a long moment. ]
It can, but I don't know if that's something I want to believe.
[ it's hard to have hope. ]
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Sorry, I know dwelling on it can do more harm than good. [spiraling in the what-ifs of things you can't confirm now that you're dead? lavi's Done That Before,]
...But you can always vent to me about it, if you want to.
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Thank you, Lavi. It's not something I like to think too long about.
[ it makes her usual bad mood worse. her mentality is already fragile. that's where her repression comes in. ]
... It doesn't help me much to.
[ which means she thinks about it too much. ]
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Lavi will reach up to tug on one of her ponytails.... playfully.... but also to distract her a little, to focus her attention on him]
Well, I know the perfect solution to that.
[he gestures out the window to the lake of ice beyond]
Wanna go ice skating?
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she follows his gesture to look out the window. ]
... All right. It's been a while since I've had to chance to.
[ it's hard to say if she has ever but i'm going on a lark. at least he's doing a good job of diverting her attention. ]
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Think it's been years for me. I've traveled plenty during the winter, but I've never had the time during my missions.
[though there was that one time he made a snowman before Allen ran off dramatically,]
How do they feel?
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We've both been too focused on our missions.
[ they're similar for different reasons.
she tries standing on the skates and because she's op, she doesn't topple over but her balance isn't there yet. it takes a bit adjustment, but she takes careful steps towards the lake. ]
I think they'll do. Are you ready?
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[though the irony that they can only do this because they're dead doesn't escape him, he glances at her with a grin, then places a skate on the ice, pushing off almost immediately -- though he turns to come back to where Four is,]
You can hold onto me if ya want.
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she smiles a little but shakes her head. ]
I won't be so weak as to need that.
[ she can't let herself be like that. she's slow to start once she's on the ice, but she gets the hang of it. it's a little wobbly, but she isn't falling yet.
at least not until the ice looks like it's starting to crack. ]
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-- Shit!
[Shit. Survival(?) training kicks in, and he pivots on his skates and grabs for Four's hand, letting his acceleration pull him along towards the shore, to hopefully, SAFETY]
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but they make it to safety!! ]
The ice looked too thick to crack. Why...?