[oh yes indeed this murderous energy definitely has a different feel to it, because it's not directed at him. He wouldn't put it past Kanda to chase him down throughout the entire week out of sheer rage at being pulled into so many stupid little memory voids, so he's surprised to find out that he's angry at something else?]
What the hell happened?
[HE ASSUMES KANDA DOESN'T MEAN MEMSHARE. HE THINKS THEY'RE PAST THAT REVELATION BY NOW. DID SOMEONE CURSE KANDA AGAIN?]
[Actually yeah he changes his mind and stabs Lavi over these memory bubbles
No just kidding he just grabs Lavi's collar and drags him off behind a building somewhere, even though nobody here knows or cares about DGM things. Listen. YOU NEVER KNOW.]
I wasn't heading back to the goddamn Order. [HE KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG. HE FUCKING KNEW IT!!! It winds him up even more just to think about it, the way his mind had ignored every flicker of doubt, how words that sounded vaguely like loyalty had come from his lips with only minimal hesitation, even though Kanda's hated the Order since the minute he opened his eyes.] Some freak showed up while I was waiting for Beansprout and Johnny, and Tim attacked him out of nowhere.
[Which is wild enough, but--]
That guy controlled Innocence. [...] It felt like--he was Innocence.
[HE GETS DRAGGED BEHIND THE BARN TO GET PUT DOWN LIKE OLD YELLER
Lavi's more than fine with finding privacy, even if no one cares about dgm business. enough of dgm business has been revealed this week, in his personal opinion. and clearly whatever Kanda's just discovered -- it's important enough to risk being near another person.
Lavi listens, because of course he does, brow furrowed and expression tense. Tim attacking someone doesn't seem that wild -- that golem is full of mysteries -- but the next part, it immediately seizes his attention]
He controlled it? But that -- would make him... [the accommodator of the heart? but he was innocence?] Wait, why are you remembering this just now?
One of those fucking--the things that show memories. [oooo he's so mad IF HE'D WOKEN UP AND THE SEAL HAD HEALED HIM INSTANTLY HE'D BE SLIGHTLY LESS MAD BUT IT DIDN'T!!! HE HAD TO FIND THIS OUT SECONDHAND??? HATEFUL] Something's still wrong--it hurts if I focus on it too hard.
[Since he can't technically undo... whatever it was that thing did to him, here--the influence of the Innocence clashes with the memory he'd relived, though of course Kanda is far too stubborn and used to pain to simply stop trying.]
[Lavi gives Kanda a sharp look at that, STOP FORCING YOURSELF TO REMEMBER IDIOD, even as the ramifications dawn on him,]
So the guy -- the Innocence -- he manipulated your memories?
[WOW. DON'T LIKE THAT....!!!! making Kanda think that he decided to return to the Order, so basically trying to separate him from Allen.... So was the Innocence after Allen? Why? Because Allen's a Noah? But why would a separate Innocence come after him when he has Crown Clown... If Suman's own Innocence killed him, then --
...Is it not trying to kill him?]
What the hell? Gramps never mentioned anything like that before.
It sure as hell feels like it. I still feel like I want to go back to the Order, even though I don't.
[He got Johnny to Allen safely, that much he remembers clearly. But did he tell Allen what he'd needed to say? Was he planning on traveling with them longer? He looks into the distance, trying again to concentrate. At least until Lavi speaks up, and then he looks at him with a sharp frown.]
General Cross. He said there was a hidden side to the war, right before he vanished. Gramps thinks that's why he was targeted. Someone in the Order went after him for knowing too much.
[bookman and his uncharacteristically nervous expression telling Lavi that they might be in danger and then they get KIDNAPPED (probably unrelated)]
If it's just stuff about the 14th and the Noah, then there's no reason to go after him. But if it's something like a sentient Innocence that none of us know about...
...You think someone in the upper ranks knows? And silenced him?
[But... why? ...Though, granted, the Order has always been fucking weird about Cross and Allen, so maybe that's not a question either of them can answer.]
Gramps said that we might be in danger too, since we were there when he talked about it.
[which considering everything they've been privy to so far, all the secrets Bookman must know about the Church... wild to be targeted for something like this when Bookman knows about all the terrible shit the Church has done????]
So whatever it is, it's definitely something the Church wants to keep secret.
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What the hell happened?
[HE ASSUMES KANDA DOESN'T MEAN MEMSHARE. HE THINKS THEY'RE PAST THAT REVELATION BY NOW. DID SOMEONE CURSE KANDA AGAIN?]
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No just kidding he just grabs Lavi's collar and drags him off behind a building somewhere, even though nobody here knows or cares about DGM things. Listen. YOU NEVER KNOW.]
I wasn't heading back to the goddamn Order. [HE KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG. HE FUCKING KNEW IT!!! It winds him up even more just to think about it, the way his mind had ignored every flicker of doubt, how words that sounded vaguely like loyalty had come from his lips with only minimal hesitation, even though Kanda's hated the Order since the minute he opened his eyes.] Some freak showed up while I was waiting for Beansprout and Johnny, and Tim attacked him out of nowhere.
[Which is wild enough, but--]
That guy controlled Innocence. [...] It felt like--he was Innocence.
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Lavi's more than fine with finding privacy, even if no one cares about dgm business. enough of dgm business has been revealed this week, in his personal opinion. and clearly whatever Kanda's just discovered -- it's important enough to risk being near another person.
Lavi listens, because of course he does, brow furrowed and expression tense. Tim attacking someone doesn't seem that wild -- that golem is full of mysteries -- but the next part, it immediately seizes his attention]
He controlled it? But that -- would make him... [the accommodator of the heart? but he was innocence?] Wait, why are you remembering this just now?
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One of those fucking--the things that show memories. [oooo he's so mad IF HE'D WOKEN UP AND THE SEAL HAD HEALED HIM INSTANTLY HE'D BE SLIGHTLY LESS MAD BUT IT DIDN'T!!! HE HAD TO FIND THIS OUT SECONDHAND??? HATEFUL] Something's still wrong--it hurts if I focus on it too hard.
[Since he can't technically undo... whatever it was that thing did to him, here--the influence of the Innocence clashes with the memory he'd relived, though of course Kanda is far too stubborn and used to pain to simply stop trying.]
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So the guy -- the Innocence -- he manipulated your memories?
[WOW. DON'T LIKE THAT....!!!! making Kanda think that he decided to return to the Order, so basically trying to separate him from Allen.... So was the Innocence after Allen? Why? Because Allen's a Noah? But why would a separate Innocence come after him when he has Crown Clown... If Suman's own Innocence killed him, then --
...Is it not trying to kill him?]
What the hell? Gramps never mentioned anything like that before.
[that's cause he doesn't tell lavi shit]
Except... [hm]
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[He got Johnny to Allen safely, that much he remembers clearly. But did he tell Allen what he'd needed to say? Was he planning on traveling with them longer? He looks into the distance, trying again to concentrate. At least until Lavi speaks up, and then he looks at him with a sharp frown.]
Except what?
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General Cross. He said there was a hidden side to the war, right before he vanished. Gramps thinks that's why he was targeted. Someone in the Order went after him for knowing too much.
[bookman and his uncharacteristically nervous expression telling Lavi that they might be in danger and then they get KIDNAPPED (probably unrelated)]
If it's just stuff about the 14th and the Noah, then there's no reason to go after him. But if it's something like a sentient Innocence that none of us know about...
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[But... why? ...Though, granted, the Order has always been fucking weird about Cross and Allen, so maybe that's not a question either of them can answer.]
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Gramps said that we might be in danger too, since we were there when he talked about it.
[which considering everything they've been privy to so far, all the secrets Bookman must know about the Church... wild to be targeted for something like this when Bookman knows about all the terrible shit the Church has done????]
So whatever it is, it's definitely something the Church wants to keep secret.
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...We need to look into it. [...] Don't let me forget.
[Now that he knows he can't trust his own mind--Lavi is the only one he can rely on.]
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I'll remember now, since you told me. So stop focusing on it for now.
[stop giving urself PAIN KANDA]
Just until we leave.
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Chops us free from this thread]
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