and he hasn't been shoved off yet, so he'll pat Kanda's hand with his bandaged one,]
Yuu. [pat pat] I saw you and Gramps. I was worried, y'know? Cause it wasn't you. You didn't have a soul, like everyone else in hell. I asked Hope, and she said she'd make a home for you and everyone. I wanted to go back and kill you. I didn't want you to be like that forever. But she sent all of us back, and I saw you at the church.
[he closes his eye, and he stops patting,]
I'm glad you're not dead. [i'm glad i didn't have to kill you]
[It would be funny to say he went and got the burn cream before this so that you have to retcon all your PCs and say he smells like salve but I am nice so we can say it happened after... he would've told Lavi to use it before sleeping though :\\\
ANYWAY. For a second, it seems like Lavi's about to ramble insanely again, but it starts making sense quickly enough that Kanda doesn't tune him out or hit him. Instead, he listens quietly, taking it in.
It's not a surprise, really? He would've done the same for Lavi, easily. He'd said as much to someone else, even, confident--He'd make sure my body got burned. It reminds him, again, of Lavi insisting he could've been lying, of the memory he'd seen, a man with no true name pieced together out of what humans respond to best.
He wonders if it bothers Lavi, to be known like this. He doesn't ask.]
You're an idiot. [It's thank you and I knew I could trust you the same way "we just started talking more" was once you're precious to me to someone else. Life would be so much easier for everyone if Kanda could just say what he meant--but why would he, when there are people who can hear him as he is?
After a moment:]
...That guy with the white hair--the one who's always with the worm guy. [Gojou] Did he tell you about the list of monsters?
[If it's information Lavi already has, then Kanda's got nothing, no other consolation prize--but he'd meant to bring this up anyway, so now is as good a time as any.]
[Life would be so much easier for everyone if Kanda could just say what he means!!!!! But Lavi doesn't care about everyone else, because he still understands him. He can hear what Kanda means when he calls him 'you're an idiot', and he's very confident that it's what he thinks, concussion aside.
So he just smiles like the idiot goof he is, because he's glad to look at Kanda and have him look back at him and call him names and not what he was in hell, distant and blank and forever living an existence that's not one at all.
But Lavi blinks away the memories, surprise stealing across his bandaged face instead.]
Yeah. I think it's the full one? It was pretty long... both of ours were there. [Squints as he tries to remember] There was unicorn, vampire, sphynx... dragon...
[...
gives up immediately]
I meant to tell you to go ask him about it earlier, but those stupid memory voids were distracting.
[You memlossed your murder via this concussion I see...]
No, he just mentioned a note. But the purple one [Famine] said that there had been developments in their investigation into the big ritual--that's what the distortions like the sky and the memory voids are from. They said I'd have to hear details from someone else, so--maybe whoever knows about that wrote the list.
[He thinks they're likely doing sneaky undercover work with some of their number, but he doesn't want to say that out loud because he doesn't know they're probably safe in PCs]
Lavi frowns at this, reminded that he hasn't been on the ball as much as he should have been this week........ though admittedly it was hard to talk about plot when being jumpscared by memories,]
Maybe they're the ones who found Kate's note too. Or maybe it's Kate who's doing the investigating.
[it is on her list of skills... he sighs,]
...Wish I got something more useful than a tongue.
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No clue! But they're probably important.
[flops on kanda, stop interrupting him mid-bandaging]
I'll be so mad if it's not.
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Even if they're not, better that we have them than the cult.
[Who would probably use these to GROW A BODY or something unlike us who will use them to summon Shrek]
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and he hasn't been shoved off yet, so he'll pat Kanda's hand with his bandaged one,]
Yuu. [pat pat] I saw you and Gramps. I was worried, y'know? Cause it wasn't you. You didn't have a soul, like everyone else in hell. I asked Hope, and she said she'd make a home for you and everyone. I wanted to go back and kill you. I didn't want you to be like that forever. But she sent all of us back, and I saw you at the church.
[he closes his eye, and he stops patting,]
I'm glad you're not dead. [i'm glad i didn't have to kill you]
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ANYWAY. For a second, it seems like Lavi's about to ramble insanely again, but it starts making sense quickly enough that Kanda doesn't tune him out or hit him. Instead, he listens quietly, taking it in.
It's not a surprise, really? He would've done the same for Lavi, easily. He'd said as much to someone else, even, confident--He'd make sure my body got burned. It reminds him, again, of Lavi insisting he could've been lying, of the memory he'd seen, a man with no true name pieced together out of what humans respond to best.
He wonders if it bothers Lavi, to be known like this. He doesn't ask.]
You're an idiot. [It's thank you and I knew I could trust you the same way "we just started talking more" was once you're precious to me to someone else. Life would be so much easier for everyone if Kanda could just say what he meant--but why would he, when there are people who can hear him as he is?
After a moment:]
...That guy with the white hair--the one who's always with the worm guy. [Gojou] Did he tell you about the list of monsters?
[If it's information Lavi already has, then Kanda's got nothing, no other consolation prize--but he'd meant to bring this up anyway, so now is as good a time as any.]
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So he just smiles like the idiot goof he is, because he's glad to look at Kanda and have him look back at him and call him names and not what he was in hell, distant and blank and forever living an existence that's not one at all.
But Lavi blinks away the memories, surprise stealing across his bandaged face instead.]
Satoru? [...] He has a list?
[HELLO???? NO HE DIDn'T KNOW THIS??????????]
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[...
gives up immediately]
I meant to tell you to go ask him about it earlier, but those stupid memory voids were distracting.
[They made him grouchy and he forgot]
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That's all you remember?
[FOUR NAMES????????????]
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You're supposed to remember them! [IT WAS ALWAYS MEANT TO BE YOUR JOB LAVI]
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he touches his forehead.... his concussion....]
I'll ask 'im later then. ...Did he tell you how he got the list?
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No, he just mentioned a note. But the purple one [Famine] said that there had been developments in their investigation into the big ritual--that's what the distortions like the sky and the memory voids are from. They said I'd have to hear details from someone else, so--maybe whoever knows about that wrote the list.
[He thinks they're likely doing sneaky undercover work with some of their number, but he doesn't want to say that out loud because he doesn't know they're probably safe in PCs]
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Lavi frowns at this, reminded that he hasn't been on the ball as much as he should have been this week........ though admittedly it was hard to talk about plot when being jumpscared by memories,]
Maybe they're the ones who found Kate's note too. Or maybe it's Kate who's doing the investigating.
[it is on her list of skills... he sighs,]
...Wish I got something more useful than a tongue.
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Anyway he clicks his tongue, annoyed.]
Quit moping. The cult would probably hunt you down if you did.
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At least I could take out a few of the bastards then.
[UNLIKE KILLING MONSTER PEOPLE FRIENDS]
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They'd only need to send one with the state you're in. [BE NICE]
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Then I'll kick that guy's ass.
[no he will die.... except murder already happened so I can't deathflag anymore... tch.]
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