Lavi understands the importance of a Record, and of writing down the details -- for everyone besides him. It's why he simply wrote that he had fought with Road, explained her abilities in detail but nothing about what he personally went through. And with Bookman... he hadn't been willing to tell him -- hadn't told him any of it all, just that he'd been weak and taken advantage of by the Noah whose abilities he's sure Gramps already knew about. What would have been the point? Bookman knows his failings, he doesn't need to know the extent of it -- of how far it goes.
How Lavi was willing to die at that moment, to give up his position in order to save his friends.]
I managed to get her in the end. She was pretending to be Allen, so I stabbed his body. Not that it actually killed her.
[especially since TYKI didn't die so Lavi is assuming that Road survived too. he doesn't know kanda met road again and stole her ribbon like a pervert,]
[I think again about how Skinn is the only fucking dead Noah ALSO WHY AREN'T WE IN CURFEW TOGETHER I'M SO AFRAID YOU'RE FUCKING DEAD AAAAAAAAAAA
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There's a lot he could say, a lot of other things to focus on here, but...]
Lena didn't mention seeing you.
[Kanda can't tell exactly when that moment was, that Lavi spotted her crying over those coffins--but he can guess, based on when he and Lavi met. Granted, Kanda had been even more violently standoffish back then, and even Lenalee wouldn't have sought him out in that state, so maybe it's not surprising.
Still--a part of him wonders if their first meeting might've been different, had they known of each other equally. The rest of him knows it probably wouldn't have been; Lavi still calls him "Yuu" even now, after all, and he's always courting danger at Kanda's hands. He has a hard time imagining that changing.]
[ME?????? YOU ARE THE ONE IM AFRAID OF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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She probably forgot. Had to move on pretty quickly, since Komui was giving us the tour.
[he merely looked down to watch the proceedings, unattached from all the grief and mourning, unattached and unaffected except for that split second where he'd been seen -- by a perfect stranger, as if she'd sensed he was there.
he hadn't been used to being noticed then. no one ever really noticed him -- not until he made himself be noticed. but someone had. lenalee had, even if she didn't remember after. he'd been sixteen years old -- still impressionable, cold-hearted but easily shaken, and maybe that's where the root of his crush started, just from a glimpse. his thoughts trail off, remembering the events as if they just happened yesterday --]
I ran into you right outside the medical ward she was in. Remember?
[if lenalee had been a glimpse, then meeting kanda had been a typhoon -- a whirl of terrible first impressions on both sides, not that it had daunted Lavi any. he'd only almost gotten killed and then bounced back, adamant on getting along with a fellow "comrade".]
[He gives him a Look at that, like "what do you think dumbass"]
I remember you being just as annoying as you are now.
[That's not strictly true, but--while Lavi's changed with time and age just like all of them have, it never escaped Kanda's notice that the war didn't seem to shock and hurt him the way it did other newbies. He was never as bright-eyed and naive as some of their eager, pious Finders, though Kanda never gave it much thought back then.]
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Lavi understands the importance of a Record, and of writing down the details -- for everyone besides him. It's why he simply wrote that he had fought with Road, explained her abilities in detail but nothing about what he personally went through. And with Bookman... he hadn't been willing to tell him -- hadn't told him any of it all, just that he'd been weak and taken advantage of by the Noah whose abilities he's sure Gramps already knew about. What would have been the point? Bookman knows his failings, he doesn't need to know the extent of it -- of how far it goes.
How Lavi was willing to die at that moment, to give up his position in order to save his friends.]
I managed to get her in the end. She was pretending to be Allen, so I stabbed his body. Not that it actually killed her.
[especially since TYKI didn't die so Lavi is assuming that Road survived too. he doesn't know kanda met road again and stole her ribbon like a pervert,]
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[I think again about how Skinn is the only fucking dead Noah ALSO WHY AREN'T WE IN CURFEW TOGETHER I'M SO AFRAID YOU'RE FUCKING DEAD AAAAAAAAAAA
...
There's a lot he could say, a lot of other things to focus on here, but...]
Lena didn't mention seeing you.
[Kanda can't tell exactly when that moment was, that Lavi spotted her crying over those coffins--but he can guess, based on when he and Lavi met. Granted, Kanda had been even more violently standoffish back then, and even Lenalee wouldn't have sought him out in that state, so maybe it's not surprising.
Still--a part of him wonders if their first meeting might've been different, had they known of each other equally. The rest of him knows it probably wouldn't have been; Lavi still calls him "Yuu" even now, after all, and he's always courting danger at Kanda's hands. He has a hard time imagining that changing.]
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She probably forgot. Had to move on pretty quickly, since Komui was giving us the tour.
[he merely looked down to watch the proceedings, unattached from all the grief and mourning, unattached and unaffected except for that split second where he'd been seen -- by a perfect stranger, as if she'd sensed he was there.
he hadn't been used to being noticed then. no one ever really noticed him -- not until he made himself be noticed. but someone had. lenalee had, even if she didn't remember after. he'd been sixteen years old -- still impressionable, cold-hearted but easily shaken, and maybe that's where the root of his crush started, just from a glimpse. his thoughts trail off, remembering the events as if they just happened yesterday --]
I ran into you right outside the medical ward she was in. Remember?
[if lenalee had been a glimpse, then meeting kanda had been a typhoon -- a whirl of terrible first impressions on both sides, not that it had daunted Lavi any. he'd only almost gotten killed and then bounced back, adamant on getting along with a fellow "comrade".]
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I remember you being just as annoying as you are now.
[That's not strictly true, but--while Lavi's changed with time and age just like all of them have, it never escaped Kanda's notice that the war didn't seem to shock and hurt him the way it did other newbies. He was never as bright-eyed and naive as some of their eager, pious Finders, though Kanda never gave it much thought back then.]
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You know, you and Lenalee were my first friends around my age! And I feel the closest to you two even now.
[he says it brightly, fondly -- like growing like a fungus on kanda obviously counts as friendship -- which he WILL count, thank you very much.]
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Who's friends with you?!
[smashcut to Lavi cleaning his wounds and fixing his bandages]
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You used to say that and try to stab me. We've really come a long way...
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Stop -- you're injured!?
[STUPID?]
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[WE CAN FREE OURSELVES FROM THIS THREAD IF YOU WANT]
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I know you can! You don't have to prove it to me!!
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