[HE WAS SETTING UP DATES BETWEEN PEOPLE NOT FOR HIMSELF
He figured Kanda would go -- and well, it'd look more suspicious if Kanda wasn't acting his usual self after the end of trial. Lavi touches his face absentmindedly, and nods. He'd almost forgotten about the note after this hellish week, damn. It doesn't even occur to him that Kanda could have found this out himself if he said yes to whatever Caelus was asking him -- simply because he can't imagine Kanda ever putting himself in a situation where he'd had to be dishonest and lie?
[A different sort of person would reach out after all of this, probably. Even for the barest of seconds, someone with an ounce of emotional competence would know that this is the perfect moment for it: a squeeze of the hand, a touch to the shoulder, anything.
Kanda, instead, simply stands for a minute, studying his face a little longer--searching, maybe, for Lavi's thoughts, for who the man in front of him is right now. But he doesn't say anything else; he simply turns to head back towards the pyre, taking up his usual spot.]
[Lavi prepares to leave, but then Kanda looks at him -- so he stops, waiting -- for what, he doesn't know. He doesn't expect Kanda to reach out, because Kanda already had earlier, in his own way. So when the other man turns to go, he doesn't feel bereft.
He feels grateful, that they still have time. That this revelation had come at the very end when Caelus had already taken up everyone's attention. That he doesn't have to confront Yuu when he's behind a veil and unable to move or escape anyone's attention. That they can still talk and argue and be idiots together and then part, knowing they'll see each other again.
His chest throbs and his face does too -- stinging with pain, and he's afraid still -- but he feels light too. They'll work it out together. He can walk off the rest of his fear and anger, he can ruminate on his own and review the last nine hours and the last ten minutes and that moment when Kanda had looked at him calmly and said his actual name --
but for now, he needs answers, and he's going to go and get as many as possible.]
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He figured Kanda would go -- and well, it'd look more suspicious if Kanda wasn't acting his usual self after the end of trial. Lavi touches his face absentmindedly, and nods. He'd almost forgotten about the note after this hellish week, damn. It doesn't even occur to him that Kanda could have found this out himself if he said yes to whatever Caelus was asking him -- simply because he can't imagine Kanda ever putting himself in a situation where he'd had to be dishonest and lie?
That's Lavi's job.]
Alright. I'll meet you at the pyre later.
[so that they can all stand vigil together]
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[A different sort of person would reach out after all of this, probably. Even for the barest of seconds, someone with an ounce of emotional competence would know that this is the perfect moment for it: a squeeze of the hand, a touch to the shoulder, anything.
Kanda, instead, simply stands for a minute, studying his face a little longer--searching, maybe, for Lavi's thoughts, for who the man in front of him is right now. But he doesn't say anything else; he simply turns to head back towards the pyre, taking up his usual spot.]
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He feels grateful, that they still have time. That this revelation had come at the very end when Caelus had already taken up everyone's attention. That he doesn't have to confront Yuu when he's behind a veil and unable to move or escape anyone's attention. That they can still talk and argue and be idiots together and then part, knowing they'll see each other again.
His chest throbs and his face does too -- stinging with pain, and he's afraid still -- but he feels light too. They'll work it out together. He can walk off the rest of his fear and anger, he can ruminate on his own and review the last nine hours and the last ten minutes and that moment when Kanda had looked at him calmly and said his actual name --
but for now, he needs answers, and he's going to go and get as many as possible.]
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