[Kanda is good at so little when it comes to dealing with other people. He isn't gentle or comforting. But he is good at listening. And he listens now, as Lavi talks about the person he used to be, the one Kanda saw as he cycled through identity after identity, as he shares more about his past than he'd ever shared before even without any real details.
(Granted, Kanda hadn't ever asked. But here and now, witnesses to each other's deepest memories, still in danger but removed from the war and everything they know... it's different, just a little. Just enough.)]
...How long are you supposed to stay? [Until someone (Allen, presumably) dies? Until the war ends (hah)? Does Lavi even know?]
[his heart flip-flops at the question, accompanied by that familiar surge of nerves and fear and guilt for not knowing how to answer it, and for being afraid of what that answer is.]
If Gramps knows, then he hasn't told me.
[Like all the rest he hasn't mentioned.]
But he's still interested in Allen, so we might leave in order to track him down. Or maybe one of us will go, and the other will stay at the Order.
Especially because Kanda... doesn't know what to say to that. What can he say? He has no control over what Bookmen do. And it's not like he isn't g̵o̸i̵n̶g̵ ̶b̸a̴c̸k̵ ̸t̵o̵ ̴t̴h̶e̸ ̷O̷r̷d̶e̸r̴ too, once they're out of there.
...It's just weird, is all. Thinking about how long they've spent together here, completely cut off from everyone else they know. Thinking about how it'll feel to go back to the way things were. It wasn't unusual to go months without seeing each other before. But so much has changed, now. He can't help wondering what that will mean, if or when they get back to their own war.
It's impossible not to notice that tinge of resentment in those thoughts, as well--but he doesn't comment, and his own thoughts don't drift through the connection. What Kanda thinks about Lavi and Bookman's relationship is something Lavi will have to ask, apparently, if he wants to know.]
...You can figure it out once you find him.
[Because if nothing else, Kanda thinks Lavi will try. He's just as bound by his heart as Kanda is, even if his ties are different.]
Lavi smiles -- he can't help it -- at Kanda's answer. Because it makes sense and it's so logical and very much like Kanda -- to put all his millions of thoughts away until it's important to take them out again,]
also KANDA.... Lavi, fortunately, remembers this bit of brainwashing that's still clinging onto Kanda's mind, and he wonders for a moment if it's worth forcing Kanda to fight through it, when he's this ice cold and can still barely breathe,]
You don't have to go right away! Might as well stick around so we can get Gramps and go back together.
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(Granted, Kanda hadn't ever asked. But here and now, witnesses to each other's deepest memories, still in danger but removed from the war and everything they know... it's different, just a little. Just enough.)]
...How long are you supposed to stay? [Until someone (Allen, presumably) dies? Until the war ends (hah)? Does Lavi even know?]
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If Gramps knows, then he hasn't told me.
[Like all the rest he hasn't mentioned.]
But he's still interested in Allen, so we might leave in order to track him down. Or maybe one of us will go, and the other will stay at the Order.
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Especially because Kanda... doesn't know what to say to that. What can he say? He has no control over what Bookmen do. And it's not like he isn't g̵o̸i̵n̶g̵ ̶b̸a̴c̸k̵ ̸t̵o̵ ̴t̴h̶e̸ ̷O̷r̷d̶e̸r̴ too, once they're out of there.
...It's just weird, is all. Thinking about how long they've spent together here, completely cut off from everyone else they know. Thinking about how it'll feel to go back to the way things were. It wasn't unusual to go months without seeing each other before. But so much has changed, now. He can't help wondering what that will mean, if or when they get back to their own war.
It's impossible not to notice that tinge of resentment in those thoughts, as well--but he doesn't comment, and his own thoughts don't drift through the connection. What Kanda thinks about Lavi and Bookman's relationship is something Lavi will have to ask, apparently, if he wants to know.]
...You can figure it out once you find him.
[Because if nothing else, Kanda thinks Lavi will try. He's just as bound by his heart as Kanda is, even if his ties are different.]
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Lavi smiles -- he can't help it -- at Kanda's answer. Because it makes sense and it's so logical and very much like Kanda -- to put all his millions of thoughts away until it's important to take them out again,]
Will you come with me?
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But he does TCH and look away]
Do your own work. [BE NICE] I have to go back to the Order, remember? [No Kanda it is you who doesn't remember]
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also KANDA.... Lavi, fortunately, remembers this bit of brainwashing that's still clinging onto Kanda's mind, and he wonders for a moment if it's worth forcing Kanda to fight through it, when he's this ice cold and can still barely breathe,]
You don't have to go right away! Might as well stick around so we can get Gramps and go back together.
[that's not gonna happen but okay lavi]
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[IMAGINE THE FOG DISSIPATES AND THEY ESCAPE AND THEY'RE JUST LIKE "WHERE IN THE FCK ARE WE"]
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It can't be that hard to figure out.
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[CALLS UR BLUFF]
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[THE FOG IS STILL HERE]
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[He's swampified he's earned these bullying rights]
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I bet I could....
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[YUUUUuuUuuuUUUUUU
Backhugs him]
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Stupid Rabbit-- get off!!
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Get warm, idiot.
[IDIOD]
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[HE'S GONNA GET UP]
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he gets up with him]
Aw...
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