I know. [scrubs at her face with one hand.] I'm - fine.
[to the first part. the second part:]
It's always the shit out of my control that I worry about. Who doesn't, right? I know he wants to stick with us. I just keep hoping something won't take that chance from him.
From any of you. Useless as that is. We wake up every Friday anyway.
[a little smile at that. she makes it easier for him to lean, tail wriggling until it's settled around him too.]
I'll keep on being here, then.
[that seems important. a beat.]
But yeah, I'm with you there. We haven't got any solid goals and I think it's got most of us spinning our wheels. It's hard to keep spirits up when it's never ending. When we're just looking at week after week of losing more people for what seems like no reason.
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He's - teetering. I don't think this is going to be the thing that breaks him, but he's close. I've been trying to keep him together.
[picks at her bandages...]
Gods, I don't know what I'd do if he went.
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...We're here for you too, Kar. And for Daan.
[though he understands, because it's very hard not to notice Daan's emotional state --]
I think -- no matter what, he'll want to see things through. As long as he's got answers to chase.
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I know. [scrubs at her face with one hand.] I'm - fine.
[to the first part. the second part:]
It's always the shit out of my control that I worry about. Who doesn't, right? I know he wants to stick with us. I just keep hoping something won't take that chance from him.
From any of you. Useless as that is. We wake up every Friday anyway.
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I dunno, I like having you root for me.
[lightly, though he sobers]
I hate the loss, and I hate waiting. Figuring out who killed who only goes so far, y'know? I want to get at the root of all of this already.
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I'll keep on being here, then.
[that seems important. a beat.]
But yeah, I'm with you there. We haven't got any solid goals and I think it's got most of us spinning our wheels. It's hard to keep spirits up when it's never ending. When we're just looking at week after week of losing more people for what seems like no reason.