I know. But even after, when I went to apologize....
[ trails off, frustrated... then just shakes her head ]
It doesn't matter. Just. It sucks.
[ it's just a humble of missing cloud and aerith, lucas, and everyone else who got taken. intrusive thoughts about whether lucas ever really cared about her, flashes of a scene between her and boothill the day aventurine died, before they even knew about the afflicted. she asks him if he had something to aventurine's death, because she knows they have bad blood. boothill looks so hurt, so stricken, that she backs down immediately, because she doesn't know. she starts to tear up, overwhelmed, and he holds her close and promises he won't die. ]
[ they've been holding hands in like every thread this week it's killing me. normally this would make her angy, but... she's kind of endeared ]
Thanks... Junior.
[ a small grin at him. it does seem like a weight has been lifted off of her, just venting a bit ]
How much do you think the person is really in control? Like.. outside of that period where the monster's acting up. Do you think they really are themselves? I know that's what we want to believe, but.... I dunno.
[LISTEN... the emotional toll of these weeks has been so high they have to hand hold about it.
he smiles back at her grin, though her question makes his expression turn thoughtful]
...I don't know. [Yuu would say that the answer doesn't matter.] I think that whatever they are and however they act -- it'll ultimately help the monster in 'em.
Yeah. Ultimately... I think the real person can fight their way through when the monster's in control.... but when it's not acting up, maybe the monster's just at the back of their minds. But pushing the person towards the agenda.
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[ trails off, frustrated... then just shakes her head ]
It doesn't matter. Just. It sucks.
[ it's just a humble of missing cloud and aerith, lucas, and everyone else who got taken. intrusive thoughts about whether lucas ever really cared about her, flashes of a scene between her and boothill the day aventurine died, before they even knew about the afflicted. she asks him if he had something to aventurine's death, because she knows they have bad blood. boothill looks so hurt, so stricken, that she backs down immediately, because she doesn't know. she starts to tear up, overwhelmed, and he holds her close and promises he won't die. ]
[ awkward ]
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he's still holding her hand, but he lifts the other to rest it on top of her head,]
It does matter. [...] And I'm sorry it sucks.
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Thanks... Junior.
[ a small grin at him. it does seem like a weight has been lifted off of her, just venting a bit ]
How much do you think the person is really in control? Like.. outside of that period where the monster's acting up. Do you think they really are themselves? I know that's what we want to believe, but.... I dunno.
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he smiles back at her grin, though her question makes his expression turn thoughtful]
...I don't know. [Yuu would say that the answer doesn't matter.] I think that whatever they are and however they act -- it'll ultimately help the monster in 'em.
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[ It matters. ]
Yeah. Ultimately... I think the real person can fight their way through when the monster's in control.... but when it's not acting up, maybe the monster's just at the back of their minds. But pushing the person towards the agenda.
... It's messed up.