Their choices were to vote someone. That wasn't something you could force them to do even if you had wanted to. I don't mean this as an uplifting thing, if you want to downplay it all or make yourself out to be more of a villain. Be my guest, really.
Either way, it's not a bad thing, to want to survive. Anyone who willingly chooses to die and thinks it proves a point is kind of dumb.
I dunno. I think in that moment, I just wanted it to be over. I didn't want to ask to be saved, because I didn't want to see their faces when the vote came out.
[it's such a soft-hearted thing to say, unfortunately. combined with the assumption that not enough people would have tried to save him. worst of both worlds,]
And then I had to see all their faces the day after, anyway.
...You say that, but it's not that easy, you know? Do you see a doorway? Because I --
[ Wow! A light!
It's not a doorway. It's another television. Something else plays, and although the uniform is completely different, the voice that comes from the bandaged girl is certainly Eto's. Maybe sounds a tad younger? But it's still her. ]
Lavi glances from the screen to Eto, as if trying to line up the woman next to him with the bandaged person comfortably perched on the tank. Their voices sound the same though, and this isn't his memory, so...]
...You don't hold back at all, huh?
[Maybe Road does have to learn a thing or two from Eto?]
Why should I? Holding back in certain times is only going to get me killed. Besides, they were kind of annoying...
Shirona and Nashiro. Two formerly human girls whose parents were killed by a ghoul. A very common case in my Tokyo, and the children are often taken to CCG facilities. A majority of the time, they become ghoul investigators themselves, letting revenge fuel them.
These two took a different path. Dr. Kanou is a bit of a madman, you see. He's very interested in learning the works of how to turn a human into a ghoul.
[ She expects Lavi can connect the dots there based off of her words from the memory, and this scenario. ]
Don't put him on the same level as me. He's a disgusting little wretch. The twins made it easy for him -- they're the ones who started projecting, first.
But of course. The traumatised, and the young -- they're the easiest targets for imprinting. After all, they're the two states when one's most vulnerable and starved for love.
Isn't that the kind of thing humans do? Not the eating part -- [well actually there are cannibals out there] but wanting to stay close to a loved one, even when they're gone.
To live in this world is to desire to be loved. To be loved in this world is to have a reason to exist -- a world you don't love isn't a world worth keeping. A world that doesn't love you isn't a world worth living in.
Anything with a functioning conscious is beholden to this curse.
Liking and loving are entirely different concepts, don't you think?
I like to sleep. I like to write, to read, to drink coffee, to bully my editor and watch him squirm about like the awkward man he is, to watch things go my way by luck or by force.
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You sure it was me being nice? And not me forcing them to make a choice none of them wanted?
Itto said I was running away. Maybe he was right.
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Either way, it's not a bad thing, to want to survive. Anyone who willingly chooses to die and thinks it proves a point is kind of dumb.
The harder thing is to keep living.
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I dunno. I think in that moment, I just wanted it to be over. I didn't want to ask to be saved, because I didn't want to see their faces when the vote came out.
[it's such a soft-hearted thing to say, unfortunately. combined with the assumption that not enough people would have tried to save him. worst of both worlds,]
And then I had to see all their faces the day after, anyway.
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[ What does this even mean. Anyway, she's assigned Lavi Babygirl of the Graveyard. ]
And in the end, human, after all.
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he huffs]
Stop.
[though it's not said without any real anger. lavi is such an emotional binch for someone who has no emotions. he gestures at the blank screen.]
We should leave before we get another round of this.
[give me moon or high priestesses lowe]
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[ JUST
NO ]
...You say that, but it's not that easy, you know? Do you see a doorway? Because I --
[ Wow! A light!
It's not a doorway. It's another television. Something else plays, and although the uniform is completely different, the voice that comes from the bandaged girl is certainly Eto's. Maybe sounds a tad younger? But it's still her. ]
Annoying...
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Lavi glances from the screen to Eto, as if trying to line up the woman next to him with the bandaged person comfortably perched on the tank. Their voices sound the same though, and this isn't his memory, so...]
...You don't hold back at all, huh?
[Maybe Road does have to learn a thing or two from Eto?]
Who were those kids?
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Shirona and Nashiro. Two formerly human girls whose parents were killed by a ghoul. A very common case in my Tokyo, and the children are often taken to CCG facilities. A majority of the time, they become ghoul investigators themselves, letting revenge fuel them.
These two took a different path. Dr. Kanou is a bit of a madman, you see. He's very interested in learning the works of how to turn a human into a ghoul.
[ She expects Lavi can connect the dots there based off of her words from the memory, and this scenario. ]
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It's not necessarily something he's never seen before, and yet.]
He must be as good as you then -- knowing what a person wants most, and saying what they wanna hear. Or is that easier to do with kids?
[he knows it's easier, that's what galls him...]
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But of course. The traumatised, and the young -- they're the easiest targets for imprinting. After all, they're the two states when one's most vulnerable and starved for love.
[ Isn't that just a fact of life? ]
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[he feels like he knows the answer, and yet, asks the question anyway]
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They're not any of mine, and I wasn't really interested in them, so I didn't really keep track. They failed as candidates.
Last I checked, though, one of them died, and the surviving twin ate her -- a desperate bid to stay together, you know.
Could you believe they were both once human? Could've fooled me.
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Isn't that the kind of thing humans do? Not the eating part -- [well actually there are cannibals out there] but wanting to stay close to a loved one, even when they're gone.
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To live in this world is to desire to be loved. To be loved in this world is to have a reason to exist -- a world you don't love isn't a world worth keeping. A world that doesn't love you isn't a world worth living in.
Anything with a functioning conscious is beholden to this curse.
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...What about you, Eto? What did you love about your world?
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Nothing at all.
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That's too bad. I was hoping to find out the kind of stuff you like.
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I like to sleep. I like to write, to read, to drink coffee, to bully my editor and watch him squirm about like the awkward man he is, to watch things go my way by luck or by force.
None of those things require a lick of love.
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[CHEEKY? though it peters off a little]
...I've got a bunch of stuff I like too, but I don't think I have anything I love... Hmm...
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[ Pointedly. Isn't that the point of your entire job as a neutral Bookman, etc etc? ]