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bookpapers) wrote2024-06-08 06:43 pm
bookpapers) wrote2024-06-08 06:43 pmAKI IS TUTORIAL AGAIN
THE LAST TIME I MADE A PC CATCHALL DAHUT EXPLODED
bookpapers) wrote2024-06-08 06:43 pm
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...It is pretty bad.
[OBVIOUSLY..........? a beat, then]
I'm glad I got to meet them though. It makes me sad when I think about 'em, but it makes me happy too. Sad because I'll meet anyone like 'em again. Happy because at least I met them.
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...That's a beautiful way of looking at it, I think. [Said a little quietly.] The sorrow is something that can't be denied, but it wouldn't exist at all if it weren't for the care behind it. And that care is something so precious.
[HUMAN HEARTS BAYBEE!! The love between people!! Emotions are worth dying at 23 for.]
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Right? It's proof that they lived, that they're more than just the sorrow.
[he doesn't touch Lucas, but he does arrange his scarf so that the ends drape over his body, like the world's smallest blanket,]
They cared about us... And we cared about them. I think they're pretty lucky to have your care, 'specially.
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Also this is so funny. This is the second time Lavi has given him a scarf blanket. He unfolds his hands just long enough to reach up and touch the fabric, and then gently tap Lavi's knee as if in thanks.]
It's important to remember that. That they're more than just the sorrow. [Like a reminder to himself more than Lavi.]
...I think you're being a bit too kind in your bias again, though. But I do hope that they knew they were cared for... Not just by me, but by so many of us.
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it's because Lucas is so FRAGILE that Lavi feels COMPELLED to offer him a SECURITY SCARF BLANKET!!!! He looks down at Lucas when he repeats those words, as if he can sense that he's also saying that for himself...]
Look, I'm just saying that there's no way they wouldn't have noticed you caring about 'em. You're really forward about it?
[DON'T MAKE LUCAS SOUND WEIRD...]
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HIS SECURITY BLANKET SCARF... He is grateful for it. The scarf itself and also the gesture behind it... Lavi is very soft, like his scarf.
There's a faint little laugh at that but it can probably be felt more than heard, and then there's a bit of a stretch of silence as he tries not to BARF.]
...I think that's a good way to care... You're pretty open with your fussing, too, even if it looks different from mine.
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I wish it was half as charming as yours...
[think of all the smokin' hot babes he could get...... sinful thoughts in the house of god.... but he's also joking about that.]
I'm not helping you feel better, am I... [LUCAS IS JUST SICK (HORIZONTAL)] Wait, don't answer that. You'll just tell me that I am.
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ALSO STOP HAVING SINFUL THOUGHTS IN THE HOUSE OF GOD, HE'S ALWAYS WATCHING. Lucas is not, his eyes have been closed this whole time. He gently patpats Lavi's knee again, though.]
You are. [ANSWERS ANYWAY.] ...I'm enjoying being able to spend time with you in the moment, even if it's a sad moment, and even if you say silly things.
[Because one never knows when the last moment will come, really.]
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Lavi lapses into silence, but it's not the Indignant kind. just the peaceful kind because Lavi does know how to be quiet, shockingly. then.]
...Are you sick because of the curse?
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This is nice, though - just a stretch of silence. Lucas is also so quiet and still that it might seem like he's dozed off, if it weren't for the slightly labored breathing, too shallow to indicate sleep. He still remains silent for a few long moments after the question, though.]
...It starts in the lungs, but will eventually cause damage to the entire body. Earlier, in the stream - that had really never happened to me before. But that may be the nature of the beast.
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Have you just been enduring it then? Or are there ways you can feel better, even for a little bit?
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Lucas is quiet for another little stretch of time. This conversation is one he doesn't want to be having, especially here and now, especially in a vulnerable position (literally, but also just being in a rough state). All the same...]
...I have... medication. But I would rather not use it.
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but hmmm.... lavi like did lucas's mysterious crutch come with a pill compartment or something]
...Does it have bad side-effects or something?
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It does. [The side effect is called being drugged.] ...And it only takes the edge off of the symptoms, really, so...
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...Since it's not a cure.
[just a stopgap, temporary relieving whatever Lucas is suffering from, and not even doing that possibly.]
I'm worried about you, Lucas. You're way more vulnerable than most of us here. [he doesn't know] Do you know how to fight at all?
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He doesn't answer the first part, but he probably doesn't need to. As for the rest:]
I know some self-defense. I have to be able to protect the children, after all... [From angry Reliver dads who show up to try stealing away their abused children!!!!!] So please don't worry about me.