[ME ALSO TRYING TO REMEMBER BUT THEY SHOULD TALK ABOUT CAMILLEGATE!!!!
Lavi will nod, letting Yuffie trail off into silence -- though he doesn't feel awkward about it. He looks out and peers from the window of the watchtower, and then turns back to sit next to Yuffie,]
I know how Yuu feels about Camille coming back, but I wanted to check on you too.
[he knows Yuffie's thoughts would bend this way -- for everyone else's feelings first, and then her own. For the same reason she took it upon herself to end Lucas's life, instead of waiting to put that on the hands of someone else.]
It was a shitty thing to do. And also, pretty fucking stupid.
[To put all their faith in the hopes she'd be fine when she came back. Just cause the Overseers didn't say not to do it, doesn't mean it would have worked out.]
[ stop she's not that selfless!!! he's the one that always puts everyone else's feelings first. mostly because he likes to pretend he doesn't have real feelings ]
Mmhmm. And even if it does work... what if someone kills her anyway? What if her monster gets summoned again?
But you know what really gets me? I'm the bad guy for killing Lucas. Even if that's what he would have wanted.
[ Why is it okay when they do it? I don't see Vin trying to bring Nona back! ]
I know. But even after, when I went to apologize....
[ trails off, frustrated... then just shakes her head ]
It doesn't matter. Just. It sucks.
[ it's just a humble of missing cloud and aerith, lucas, and everyone else who got taken. intrusive thoughts about whether lucas ever really cared about her, flashes of a scene between her and boothill the day aventurine died, before they even knew about the afflicted. she asks him if he had something to aventurine's death, because she knows they have bad blood. boothill looks so hurt, so stricken, that she backs down immediately, because she doesn't know. she starts to tear up, overwhelmed, and he holds her close and promises he won't die. ]
[ they've been holding hands in like every thread this week it's killing me. normally this would make her angy, but... she's kind of endeared ]
Thanks... Junior.
[ a small grin at him. it does seem like a weight has been lifted off of her, just venting a bit ]
How much do you think the person is really in control? Like.. outside of that period where the monster's acting up. Do you think they really are themselves? I know that's what we want to believe, but.... I dunno.
[LISTEN... the emotional toll of these weeks has been so high they have to hand hold about it.
he smiles back at her grin, though her question makes his expression turn thoughtful]
...I don't know. [Yuu would say that the answer doesn't matter.] I think that whatever they are and however they act -- it'll ultimately help the monster in 'em.
Yeah. Ultimately... I think the real person can fight their way through when the monster's in control.... but when it's not acting up, maybe the monster's just at the back of their minds. But pushing the person towards the agenda.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
[ but she's got the anime blush lines above her head ]
.... Yeah. So we'd best hang onto 'em. See what we can do....
[ me trying to remember what else this thread was gonna be about aside from complicated feelings on camillegate ]
no subject
Lavi will nod, letting Yuffie trail off into silence -- though he doesn't feel awkward about it. He looks out and peers from the window of the watchtower, and then turns back to sit next to Yuffie,]
I know how Yuu feels about Camille coming back, but I wanted to check on you too.
no subject
[ she hugs her knees tightly ]
It sounds like she's not afflicted anymore, so that's good. It's not like I wanted her to die. But...
[ None of it is fair. To Cloud, to Nona, to Aerith, to any of them, to me -- not even to Camille herself. ]
no subject
[he knows Yuffie's thoughts would bend this way -- for everyone else's feelings first, and then her own. For the same reason she took it upon herself to end Lucas's life, instead of waiting to put that on the hands of someone else.]
It was a shitty thing to do. And also, pretty fucking stupid.
[To put all their faith in the hopes she'd be fine when she came back. Just cause the Overseers didn't say not to do it, doesn't mean it would have worked out.]
no subject
Mmhmm. And even if it does work... what if someone kills her anyway? What if her monster gets summoned again?
But you know what really gets me? I'm the bad guy for killing Lucas. Even if that's what he would have wanted.
[ Why is it okay when they do it? I don't see Vin trying to bring Nona back! ]
no subject
I think so too. [That it would have been what he wanted.] But emotions were pretty high at the end.
[TOO MANY THINGS WERE HAPPENING....]
But you don't need their understanding -- as long as they don't get on your back for it.
no subject
[ trails off, frustrated... then just shakes her head ]
It doesn't matter. Just. It sucks.
[ it's just a humble of missing cloud and aerith, lucas, and everyone else who got taken. intrusive thoughts about whether lucas ever really cared about her, flashes of a scene between her and boothill the day aventurine died, before they even knew about the afflicted. she asks him if he had something to aventurine's death, because she knows they have bad blood. boothill looks so hurt, so stricken, that she backs down immediately, because she doesn't know. she starts to tear up, overwhelmed, and he holds her close and promises he won't die. ]
[ awkward ]
no subject
he's still holding her hand, but he lifts the other to rest it on top of her head,]
It does matter. [...] And I'm sorry it sucks.
no subject
Thanks... Junior.
[ a small grin at him. it does seem like a weight has been lifted off of her, just venting a bit ]
How much do you think the person is really in control? Like.. outside of that period where the monster's acting up. Do you think they really are themselves? I know that's what we want to believe, but.... I dunno.
no subject
he smiles back at her grin, though her question makes his expression turn thoughtful]
...I don't know. [Yuu would say that the answer doesn't matter.] I think that whatever they are and however they act -- it'll ultimately help the monster in 'em.
no subject
[ It matters. ]
Yeah. Ultimately... I think the real person can fight their way through when the monster's in control.... but when it's not acting up, maybe the monster's just at the back of their minds. But pushing the person towards the agenda.
... It's messed up.