It was a little funny, in a dramatic irony sort of way.
I wouldn't have minded too much normally, but I recall everyone's emotions were all over the place that entire week.
[ So she took it a bit personally maybe. She evidently holds no grudges though, even if on the other hand, she doesn't seem sorry about her reaction. ]
Still, let me know how I can make it up to ya. This time, I'll copy something you like, yeah?
[he says cheerfully, and as if on cue -- the screen blinks back on and plays a memory.
in this one, Lavi's voice is stripped of all his cheer -- in fact, it's hard to make out his words amid the sound of his blows landing, of his friends calling his name. Or are they his friends? The blank neutrality of his voice doesn't seem to say so, and he says as much after. The screen turns white as the serpent descends, jaws snapping.]
[ God I see you've been suffering the terrible translation woes. Lavi (Jewish)... ]
You know, you could just help me find it in the library instead, unless you just want to do it to keep your own mind sharp.
[ But she glances aside when the television has decided they haven't had enough. She doesn't turn to watch with rapt attention, but she doesn't avert her eyes, either. Witnessing it as a bystander... until the snakes jaws snap, as does the screen, and she looks back at him. ]
I don't think that girl's exactly got it right, or at least, it sounds counterintuitive. What you really "mean" is what lies in the heart... probably.
[ She deems Road loser for being kinda bad at verbal manipulation.</small. ]
[LSDMFSDLF AHHHHH the one this one and the official translation are equally bad.
It stands to reason that a part of Lavi's life would be shown in return, but the tension visible in his shoulders relaxes a little at the comment. It surprises him into a laugh, actually.]
Well, it is her ability. She's probably allowed to say whatever she wants about it.
[road... (derogatory) meanwhile i love her with my whole heart]
And she wasn't exactly in her right mind at this point, considering Allen hurt one of her family members.
For being a person who's so hellbent on neutrality and not making friends, you've made yourself awfully popular. I'd never seen such rage from a person who isn't thoroughly invested in emotional affairs.
[ Meaning his octopus slam in front of everyone and God, or Satan as it were. ]
Their choices were to vote someone. That wasn't something you could force them to do even if you had wanted to. I don't mean this as an uplifting thing, if you want to downplay it all or make yourself out to be more of a villain. Be my guest, really.
Either way, it's not a bad thing, to want to survive. Anyone who willingly chooses to die and thinks it proves a point is kind of dumb.
I dunno. I think in that moment, I just wanted it to be over. I didn't want to ask to be saved, because I didn't want to see their faces when the vote came out.
[it's such a soft-hearted thing to say, unfortunately. combined with the assumption that not enough people would have tried to save him. worst of both worlds,]
And then I had to see all their faces the day after, anyway.
...You say that, but it's not that easy, you know? Do you see a doorway? Because I --
[ Wow! A light!
It's not a doorway. It's another television. Something else plays, and although the uniform is completely different, the voice that comes from the bandaged girl is certainly Eto's. Maybe sounds a tad younger? But it's still her. ]
Lavi glances from the screen to Eto, as if trying to line up the woman next to him with the bandaged person comfortably perched on the tank. Their voices sound the same though, and this isn't his memory, so...]
...You don't hold back at all, huh?
[Maybe Road does have to learn a thing or two from Eto?]
Why should I? Holding back in certain times is only going to get me killed. Besides, they were kind of annoying...
Shirona and Nashiro. Two formerly human girls whose parents were killed by a ghoul. A very common case in my Tokyo, and the children are often taken to CCG facilities. A majority of the time, they become ghoul investigators themselves, letting revenge fuel them.
These two took a different path. Dr. Kanou is a bit of a madman, you see. He's very interested in learning the works of how to turn a human into a ghoul.
[ She expects Lavi can connect the dots there based off of her words from the memory, and this scenario. ]
Don't put him on the same level as me. He's a disgusting little wretch. The twins made it easy for him -- they're the ones who started projecting, first.
But of course. The traumatised, and the young -- they're the easiest targets for imprinting. After all, they're the two states when one's most vulnerable and starved for love.
Isn't that the kind of thing humans do? Not the eating part -- [well actually there are cannibals out there] but wanting to stay close to a loved one, even when they're gone.
To live in this world is to desire to be loved. To be loved in this world is to have a reason to exist -- a world you don't love isn't a world worth keeping. A world that doesn't love you isn't a world worth living in.
Anything with a functioning conscious is beholden to this curse.
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I wouldn't have minded too much normally, but I recall everyone's emotions were all over the place that entire week.
[ So she took it a bit personally maybe. She evidently holds no grudges though, even if on the other hand, she doesn't seem sorry about her reaction. ]
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[he says cheerfully, and as if on cue -- the screen blinks back on and plays a memory.
in this one, Lavi's voice is stripped of all his cheer -- in fact, it's hard to make out his words amid the sound of his blows landing, of his friends calling his name. Or are they his friends? The blank neutrality of his voice doesn't seem to say so, and he says as much after. The screen turns white as the serpent descends, jaws snapping.]
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You know, you could just help me find it in the library instead, unless you just want to do it to keep your own mind sharp.
[ But she glances aside when the television has decided they haven't had enough. She doesn't turn to watch with rapt attention, but she doesn't avert her eyes, either. Witnessing it as a bystander... until the snakes jaws snap, as does the screen, and she looks back at him. ]
I don't think that girl's exactly got it right, or at least, it sounds counterintuitive. What you really "mean" is what lies in the heart... probably.
[ She deems Road loser for being kinda bad at verbal manipulation.</small. ]
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It stands to reason that a part of Lavi's life would be shown in return, but the tension visible in his shoulders relaxes a little at the comment. It surprises him into a laugh, actually.]
Well, it is her ability. She's probably allowed to say whatever she wants about it.
[road... (derogatory) meanwhile i love her with my whole heart]
And she wasn't exactly in her right mind at this point, considering Allen hurt one of her family members.
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Are you giving her sympathy despite her making you fight your own friends? There's a limit to "neutrality".
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Just giving you the facts. Context's always important, right?
And I dunno if she made me do anything. It's like what you said -- 'what lies in the heart'. That part of me was always there.
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For being a person who's so hellbent on neutrality and not making friends, you've made yourself awfully popular. I'd never seen such rage from a person who isn't thoroughly invested in emotional affairs.
[ Meaning his octopus slam in front of everyone and God, or Satan as it were. ]
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I'll be honest. I was pissed about Cosmos, but I was also mad that I was gonna die that way, all because of an octopus.
[murder rage, except a day late.]
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[ Agreeing. If she had to go out, at least it was a pretty fucking metal way to go out. ]
But you're too nice to even ask to be spared.
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You sure it was me being nice? And not me forcing them to make a choice none of them wanted?
Itto said I was running away. Maybe he was right.
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Either way, it's not a bad thing, to want to survive. Anyone who willingly chooses to die and thinks it proves a point is kind of dumb.
The harder thing is to keep living.
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I dunno. I think in that moment, I just wanted it to be over. I didn't want to ask to be saved, because I didn't want to see their faces when the vote came out.
[it's such a soft-hearted thing to say, unfortunately. combined with the assumption that not enough people would have tried to save him. worst of both worlds,]
And then I had to see all their faces the day after, anyway.
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[ What does this even mean. Anyway, she's assigned Lavi Babygirl of the Graveyard. ]
And in the end, human, after all.
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he huffs]
Stop.
[though it's not said without any real anger. lavi is such an emotional binch for someone who has no emotions. he gestures at the blank screen.]
We should leave before we get another round of this.
[give me moon or high priestesses lowe]
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[ JUST
NO ]
...You say that, but it's not that easy, you know? Do you see a doorway? Because I --
[ Wow! A light!
It's not a doorway. It's another television. Something else plays, and although the uniform is completely different, the voice that comes from the bandaged girl is certainly Eto's. Maybe sounds a tad younger? But it's still her. ]
Annoying...
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Lavi glances from the screen to Eto, as if trying to line up the woman next to him with the bandaged person comfortably perched on the tank. Their voices sound the same though, and this isn't his memory, so...]
...You don't hold back at all, huh?
[Maybe Road does have to learn a thing or two from Eto?]
Who were those kids?
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Shirona and Nashiro. Two formerly human girls whose parents were killed by a ghoul. A very common case in my Tokyo, and the children are often taken to CCG facilities. A majority of the time, they become ghoul investigators themselves, letting revenge fuel them.
These two took a different path. Dr. Kanou is a bit of a madman, you see. He's very interested in learning the works of how to turn a human into a ghoul.
[ She expects Lavi can connect the dots there based off of her words from the memory, and this scenario. ]
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It's not necessarily something he's never seen before, and yet.]
He must be as good as you then -- knowing what a person wants most, and saying what they wanna hear. Or is that easier to do with kids?
[he knows it's easier, that's what galls him...]
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But of course. The traumatised, and the young -- they're the easiest targets for imprinting. After all, they're the two states when one's most vulnerable and starved for love.
[ Isn't that just a fact of life? ]
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[he feels like he knows the answer, and yet, asks the question anyway]
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They're not any of mine, and I wasn't really interested in them, so I didn't really keep track. They failed as candidates.
Last I checked, though, one of them died, and the surviving twin ate her -- a desperate bid to stay together, you know.
Could you believe they were both once human? Could've fooled me.
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Isn't that the kind of thing humans do? Not the eating part -- [well actually there are cannibals out there] but wanting to stay close to a loved one, even when they're gone.
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To live in this world is to desire to be loved. To be loved in this world is to have a reason to exist -- a world you don't love isn't a world worth keeping. A world that doesn't love you isn't a world worth living in.
Anything with a functioning conscious is beholden to this curse.
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...What about you, Eto? What did you love about your world?
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Nothing at all.
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