[THE WAY I SAID HE'D ALLOW IT BUT YOU SAID "NOOO" ANYWAY
But he'll pass Lavi the bucket and go get a pumpkin!! Just one for now, he'll come back with more later. Their house will have so many pumpkins. What did he even get a fishing rod for.]
We have to cut them up first. [He could use Mugen but it'd probably be better just to grab the axe from the barn...]
[300 COMMENTS OF THEM BEING STUPID this is so funny
and also annoying bc he wants to touch too….. hmmmmm… the sooner they do this the sooner they can leave the barn cats and the sooner he can hold Kanda again!!!! This is kind of weird but it doesn’t feel wrong…]
You can play with ‘em while I chop up the pumpkins.
[he may not have visible abs but he has enough core strength to do this]
[He says this but he finds himself moving out of the way to sit down with minimal griping... but that's not, like, totally unusual? It's fine. What is a little weird is that it's kind of uncomfortable to sit far away, but he brushes it off as the cats immediately start to climb on him and bat at his hair.]
[JUST SIT THERE AND RECEIVE LOVE AND AFFECTION.... Lavi cuts up this pumpkin along the grooves, and starts peeling the skin in long chunks with the edge of the axe. it's a little unwieldy, but he manages for now.]
[Kanda dozes off..... which means Lavi can't do anything cool with this pumpkin to impress him.... which would be sad if he didn't think sleepy Kanda was also funny. He finishes up cutting the last of the pumpkins and carries it all over to their bucket.
the other cat starts batting harder at kanda's thigh? um can the lap cat move and make some ROOM???? but Lavi lures it away with a bit of raw pumpkin,]
Let him rest, yeah? We've been sleeping in shifts for two whole days now.
[even though they've slept like that for far longer and in more inclement conditions, but still. anyway he'll play with this cat so kanda can just fall asleep like a princess in his barn.]
[it doesn't actually hurt since he's wearing a boot but it's the principle of the matter? he tries to pet it with sticky pumpkin fingers]
What are you -- Kanda? Is that why you like him so much? Kindred spirits? [then again this behavior is also like allen.... he'll give it a little scritch under the chin and it calms down a little...
The cat calms down... and starts trying to ferociously lick the pumpkin off his fingers!! But it does that cat thing where it holds on with its paws and its little claws pop out to cling better. I rolled a 4 but I want to be nice to Lavi so this is my middle ground.
Kanda, meanwhile, is oblivious to all of this, because for once they are somewhere decently quiet (there are cows outside) DECENTLY QUIET, and there are no strangers nearby... sometimes you just gotta steal a little nap when you're with the one person here that you feel safe around.
Lavi endures these little kitty claws, even if some of them get into the skin of his fingers because these fcks wear FINGERLESS gloves,]
I'm gonna call you Mugen. Mu-mu?
[JUST CHRISTENS THIS VIOLENT KITTY CAT. he attempts to swoop the cat into his hands, turning back to look at Sleeping Kanda, his expression wholly different from when they've been taking shifts. It makes Lavi hesitate (FOR ONCE), and instead of bowling Kanda over AGAIN in this thread, he just keeps attempting to distract this kitty so Kanda get some REST,]
[STOP LAVI WAS CHOPPING PUMPKINS HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway he can nap.... lavi naps all the fcking time even with cats who want to tear up his hands. is KANDA SLEEPING WHILE SITTING UP LIKE A FREAK?????? Lavi will just lean against his back then while tickling this cat]
[HE COULD'VE COME OVER WHEN HE FINISHED BEATS YOU UP
But he's here now I GUESS because yeah he just dozed off sitting up. I think about how he's slept sitting up almost every time we've seen him sleep in the manga... only in the anime does he get to sleep in bed
And honestly it's probably partially because of the nerf--even with the reduction to his seal powers he's not used to feeling this "normal"? It's a complicated thing to experience for someone who's never seen himself as a true human. Maybe under different circumstances, he'd ponder it, but right now it's not something he wants to dwell on too much.
Regardless, it means he lets this happen for a little while, though inevitably a kitty will nyoom too hard past him and he'll stir.]
Are you done? [He sounds perfectly alert, as if he was awake the whole time even though he definitely wasn't]
[the angle for this back nap isn't perfectly right, Lavi's used to leaning on someone much shorter, so it's not the most comfortable nap in the world -- but luckily for Lavi, once he gets into the Sleep Zone, then all naps are Comfortable No Matter What, which means he falls asleep pretty quickly.
he doesn't so much twitch as the cat goes nyooming by and more importantly, doesn't snap awake at the sound of Kanda's voice. he just keeps leaning against Kanda like he's a real life anime body pillow -- moving restlessly enough to flop his head on Kanda's shoulder, brows furrowed and looking a little sweaty?]
No.
[WOAH THERE]
Gramps... [oh] That guy -- he has... Stop --
[nightmares at the order are truly a dime a dozen and Lavi will be so annoyed to have this one, but for now he's caught in the throes of it, pressing his back harder against Kanda's like he's trying to inch away from whatever shade he's seeing in the corner of his mind --]
[Nightmares really are so common. And honestly--after two years together, this probably isn't even the first time he's seen Lavi caught up in one. It's for the best, he knows, to let it pass. Sometimes interfering can make things worse, and every exorcist is a little trigger-happy when tensions are high. There's a good chance that doing anything but sitting quietly could lead to Lavi lashing out on reflex. And besides, who is Kanda to drag someone out of a nightmare? It's not like he'll have any comforting words or gestures. It's not hard to figure out what Lavi's dreaming about, either, and he certainly doesn't have any reassurances there.
But for all that he's a cold person, never one to ask personal questions, never eager to form even more bonds that will, in his experience, only ever be used against him--he never manages to be heartless enough.
So he shifts, turning around to shift Lavi to his shoulder and brace one hand on his back, grabbing his arm firmly with the other.]
[It'd be easier if he didn't remember . If he hadn't been trained to keep every single horror committed in his mind forever and ever, because who else will remember if we do not, who else will remember the exact way Chaoji crumpled first, vacant and unresponsive -- who else will remember the way Lavi desperately engaged, fighting to give Bookman a chance to run. no one else, no one else but Lavi to remember the exact way he failed, the moment terror eclipsed his rage.
he jerks a little at the touch -- and then again at the sound of his name. lavi. lavi. lavi. sometimes that's all it takes when the logs threaten to bleed together. a reassertion of who he is, a reminder to ground himself. leave the rest behind, only keep what's needed. except he needs this nightmare, it's part of his history. he has to keep it, forever. he can't run from it anymore than he can run from the rest of this holy war --
eventually his eye opens. he doesn't lash out this time or fight, his limbs feel too weighed down to manage anything more than the twitch of his fingers. he focuses instead on these new sensations, the hand on his back and one wrapped around his arm -- the sound of Kanda's voice, which jerks him fully awake. yuu wasn't there. how long has it been? what else did I lose?]
-- How long...?
[was he asleep this time? a day? weeks? four months?]
[That jerk is enough for him to tense slightly--bracing to catch Lavi's fist or otherwise block him if he needs to, but Lavi's tension stays inward. (And it's almost worse that way, because he can't do anything about it when it's like this--but no, that's not his problem, is it? Because they aren't friends, they aren't anything, he doesn't care--)
He stays where he is, watching Lavi's face, the way his expression shifts in sleep, and then in waking.]
Fifteen minutes. Maybe twenty.
[They don't have a clock, but he's used to measuring time without one anyway, so it isn't hard to give an estimate--and given what they talked about in the beginning, he has a feeling Lavi will only care that it wasn't very long, rather than about anything precise.]
[it's not precise, but it's enough. it's more than what Lavi would have gotten if he never met Yuu -- he knows this, the instinctive feeling that if he never woke up in this town and met him again, then he'd never have known just how long it's been. the relief is obvious on his face, and he slumps, resting his weight against Kanda. even though he knows he should get a hold of himself now that he's awake.]
...
[he's not worried about what Kanda might have seen -- he's had nightmares in front of him before, worse ones. but the concern that prickles through him isn't for his secrets or privacy for once, but for]
Did I wake you up?
[did his stupid NIGHTMARE wake Kanda from the only piece of restful sleep he's had since coming here]
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keeps hugging him]
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[Flustered by his own lack of killing intent in this moment]
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incredibly confused that kanda hasn't killed him yet but more than happy to prolong this affectionate opportunity of affection]
S'fine, they're all in the bucket!
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APPARENTLY HE WILL OKAY
He still sighs though]
Get off, I want pumpkin.
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Lavi will reluctantly release Kanda....... kanda who is definitely cursed wow]
Let's cook them at the bonfire.
[TIME TO CARRY THEIR VEGGIES TO FIRE AFTER WASHING THEM IN A HORSE TROUGH I GUESS]
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But he'll pass Lavi the bucket and go get a pumpkin!! Just one for now, he'll come back with more later. Their house will have so many pumpkins. What did he even get a fishing rod for.]
We have to cut them up first. [He could use Mugen but it'd probably be better just to grab the axe from the barn...]
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There's an axe over in the barn, but we gotta cut them there.
[heads on over to do so... as they do the barn cats come snuggling on up to kanda and lavi]
Aw, Yuu. You're so popular....
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BUT HELP WHY THIS. THEY CAN'T SWING SHARP THINGS WITH CATS RIGHT HERE!!!]
It's because you're loud. [DOG ENERGY
But he nudges them towards Lavi... watches as these cats turn liquid and somehow wrap around his leg to come right back... SIGHS]
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and also annoying bc he wants to touch too….. hmmmmm… the sooner they do this the sooner they can leave the barn cats and the sooner he can hold Kanda again!!!! This is kind of weird but it doesn’t feel wrong…]
You can play with ‘em while I chop up the pumpkins.
[he may not have visible abs but he has enough core strength to do this]
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[He says this but he finds himself moving out of the way to sit down with minimal griping... but that's not, like, totally unusual? It's fine. What is a little weird is that it's kind of uncomfortable to sit far away, but he brushes it off as the cats immediately start to climb on him and bat at his hair.]
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You're doing it right now!
[JUST SIT THERE AND RECEIVE LOVE AND AFFECTION.... Lavi cuts up this pumpkin along the grooves, and starts peeling the skin in long chunks with the edge of the axe. it's a little unwieldy, but he manages for now.]
Keep distracting them.
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He sighs like this is a great ordeal, but once again he allows this... and starts to doze off as one of them settles in his lap and purrs? Cozy...]
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the other cat starts batting harder at kanda's thigh? um can the lap cat move and make some ROOM???? but Lavi lures it away with a bit of raw pumpkin,]
Let him rest, yeah? We've been sleeping in shifts for two whole days now.
[even though they've slept like that for far longer and in more inclement conditions, but still. anyway he'll play with this cat so kanda can just fall asleep like a princess in his barn.]
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The cat comes over and swipes at Lavi's ankle]
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-- Ow, quit it.
[it doesn't actually hurt since he's wearing a boot but it's the principle of the matter? he tries to pet it with sticky pumpkin fingers]
What are you -- Kanda? Is that why you like him so much? Kindred spirits? [then again this behavior is also like allen.... he'll give it a little scritch under the chin and it calms down a little...
...]
Maybe this might work on him too...
[uh oh]
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The cat calms down... and starts trying to ferociously lick the pumpkin off his fingers!! But it does that cat thing where it holds on with its paws and its little claws pop out to cling better. I rolled a 4 but I want to be nice to Lavi so this is my middle ground.
Kanda, meanwhile, is oblivious to all of this, because for once they are somewhere decently quiet (there are cows outside) DECENTLY QUIET, and there are no strangers nearby... sometimes you just gotta steal a little nap when you're with the one person here that you feel safe around.
...At least until he ruins it because he's LAVI]
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Lavi endures these little kitty claws, even if some of them get into the skin of his fingers because these fcks wear FINGERLESS gloves,]
I'm gonna call you Mugen. Mu-mu?
[JUST CHRISTENS THIS VIOLENT KITTY CAT. he attempts to swoop the cat into his hands, turning back to look at Sleeping Kanda, his expression wholly different from when they've been taking shifts. It makes Lavi hesitate (FOR ONCE), and instead of bowling Kanda over AGAIN in this thread, he just keeps attempting to distract this kitty so Kanda get some REST,]
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anyway he can nap.... lavi naps all the fcking time even with cats who want to tear up his hands. is KANDA SLEEPING WHILE SITTING UP LIKE A FREAK?????? Lavi will just lean against his back then while tickling this cat]
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But he's here now I GUESS because yeah he just dozed off sitting up. I think about how he's slept sitting up almost every time we've seen him sleep in the manga... only in the anime does he get to sleep in bed
And honestly it's probably partially because of the nerf--even with the reduction to his seal powers he's not used to feeling this "normal"? It's a complicated thing to experience for someone who's never seen himself as a true human. Maybe under different circumstances, he'd ponder it, but right now it's not something he wants to dwell on too much.
Regardless, it means he lets this happen for a little while, though inevitably a kitty will nyoom too hard past him and he'll stir.]
Are you done? [He sounds perfectly alert, as if he was awake the whole time even though he definitely wasn't]
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he doesn't so much twitch as the cat goes nyooming by and more importantly, doesn't snap awake at the sound of Kanda's voice. he just keeps leaning against Kanda like he's a real life anime body pillow -- moving restlessly enough to flop his head on Kanda's shoulder, brows furrowed and looking a little sweaty?]
No.
[WOAH THERE]
Gramps... [oh] That guy -- he has... Stop --
[nightmares at the order are truly a dime a dozen and Lavi will be so annoyed to have this one, but for now he's caught in the throes of it, pressing his back harder against Kanda's like he's trying to inch away from whatever shade he's seeing in the corner of his mind --]
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But for all that he's a cold person, never one to ask personal questions, never eager to form even more bonds that will, in his experience, only ever be used against him--he never manages to be heartless enough.
So he shifts, turning around to shift Lavi to his shoulder and brace one hand on his back, grabbing his arm firmly with the other.]
Lavi.
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he jerks a little at the touch -- and then again at the sound of his name. lavi. lavi. lavi. sometimes that's all it takes when the logs threaten to bleed together. a reassertion of who he is, a reminder to ground himself. leave the rest behind, only keep what's needed. except he needs this nightmare, it's part of his history. he has to keep it, forever. he can't run from it anymore than he can run from the rest of this holy war --
eventually his eye opens. he doesn't lash out this time or fight, his limbs feel too weighed down to manage anything more than the twitch of his fingers. he focuses instead on these new sensations, the hand on his back and one wrapped around his arm -- the sound of Kanda's voice, which jerks him fully awake. yuu wasn't there. how long has it been? what else did I lose?]
-- How long...?
[was he asleep this time? a day? weeks? four months?]
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He stays where he is, watching Lavi's face, the way his expression shifts in sleep, and then in waking.]
Fifteen minutes. Maybe twenty.
[They don't have a clock, but he's used to measuring time without one anyway, so it isn't hard to give an estimate--and given what they talked about in the beginning, he has a feeling Lavi will only care that it wasn't very long, rather than about anything precise.]
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...
[he's not worried about what Kanda might have seen -- he's had nightmares in front of him before, worse ones. but the concern that prickles through him isn't for his secrets or privacy for once, but for]
Did I wake you up?
[did his stupid NIGHTMARE wake Kanda from the only piece of restful sleep he's had since coming here]
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