Lavi remembers most of the Order being pretty split on them -- some thinking it was the needed next step, others horrified at using the "enemy's weapons". he remembers Allen's visceral discomfort, even Link's.
but kanda? he didn't seem to have much of a reaction at all to the news, not that Lavi spent much time to observe him before they got sent to their respective missions.... he lingers a little anyway, wondering, but his curiosity spurs him onward. half-akuma are just akuma in the end, huh.....
his thoughts immediately go to Allen, who isn't so much an Akuma but has a whole ass NOAH in him,]
[At that question, Kanda's jaw tightens; his fingers curl into a loose fist, heedless of the still-unhealed papercuts on his palm.
But Kanda has never been one to beat around the bush for anything, so.]
I woke up the Noah in him.
[Nevermind that it was manipulation, that it was only a matter of time before this happened, no matter what the Science Section thinks they could've done to slow it down. At the end of the day, he's still the one who lost control, and it was his Innocence that broke the last chains holding the Fourteenth back. If he's going to m̸̳͒a̷̳͝k̵̦͋e̸̫̕ ̴̰͝h̸̫͊ẻ̷͜l̵͉̔p̴̋ͅi̶̭͌n̴̯̄g̸͚̀ ̴͈̕Ȁ̵̜ḻ̵́ḽ̷̄ȩ̸́n̵̠̉ ̴͕̉h̸͍͒ȉ̶̖ś̵͉ ̴̩̄r̵̠͐e̶̖͌ă̴̰s̸͍̏o̷̜̍ṅ̶͈ ̷̙͑f̴̮́ò̸̺ȑ̷̩ ̸̰̈́ĺ̴̗i̸̳͒v̶̪͠į̵̈́n̵̛̥g̵̺̕ atone, then he needs to own that.]
Apparently the Order locked him up, but the other Noah broke him out. Lena saw him, though, and said he took off to deal with it all on his own. Idiot. [Tch] Johnny quit to help him.
[Lavi's single eye widens at that, and if he'd been looking elsewhere then his head would have snapped back to Kanda so fast in his shock. Woke up? Kanda? There's no love lost between Allen and Kanda but -- not to that point, no, but... he thinks of the meeting in Komui's office, where everyone heard the news, stunned at the revelation, the frosty atmosphere after --
was it that bad? was this something they should have expected?]
[His kneejerk reaction would be to say something like the stupid idiot got in my way, and it isn't even untrue? But. After everything that happened, Kanda can't treat that incident with anything less than the solemnity it deserves. He'll never say thank you to Allen's face again, but that doesn't make him any less grateful.]
He was trying to stop me from doing something I would've regretted.
[And Lavi knows Kanda--and Allen, honestly--to be able to picture what that would've looked like.]
[HE DOES KNOW THEM, HE CAN PICTURE HOW THAT LOOKS!!! DAMN!!!!! He feels restless, not so much out of shock and disappointment -- but more from hearing about it all secondhand. he should have been there. (to help or to see?)]
...Like when Allen got stabbed by his Innocence.
[IN THE TIMOTHY ArC THAT HE ALSO WASN'T THErE FOr....]
It's just him and Johnny now? With the whole Order after them?
[LIKE WHEN ALLEN GOT STABBED BY HIS INNOCENCE, WHICH KANDA ALSO DID NOT REPORT PROPERLY..... he actually looks away at that reminder. Imagine if he'd reported it to Komui, where would they be now...
Kanda doesn't waste time thinking about that, though. There's no timeline in which he would've trusted or cared about the Order enough to do that, so it's a moot point.]
They'll be fine. The beansprout's a slippery little brat, and Johnny will keep him in line. [Since when does Kanda respect Johnny so much LAVI YOU'VE BEEN CHAIR'D FOR SO LONG.] He told me to go back and take care of the Order.
[...? He did, didn't he? Right, yes. He did.
But more importantly:]
If he's the Fourteenth next time we meet, I'll kill him. That hasn't changed.
[It's just that now it's more like mercy, the repayment of a debt, than anything else.]
[I FOrGOT THAT KANDA DIDNT rEPOrT IT... GOD DAMN how did lavi find out wow he's psychic now
also yeah it's actually so weird to hear kanda say something vaguely nice about anyone even if it is johnny, but what's even weirder is that Kanda listened to allen wow,]
And you listened?
[huh........ DID THEIr rELATIONSHIP GrOW STrONGEr BECAUSE OF THEIr STABBING????? WHAT THE FCK oh wait no kanda said he'd kill the fourteenth. he makes a face]
[LFMSDKJGHKS IT'S FINE Marie and Link were also there PEOPLE SAW ALLEN GET STABBED THEY JUST DIDN'T SEE HIS NEA FACE... Lavi just extrapolated with his big brain
Also the way he immediately bristles]
I have better things to do than follow that idiot around everywhere!
[WOW WELL HE'S NOT WRONG BUT STILL WHO JUMPED INTO THE ARK AFTER ALLEN AND LENALEE AND LAVI GOT SUCKED IN HUH KANDA? WHO DID THAT
Lavi simply looks at Kanda like he's trying to fit this strangely new? version? of him with all his prior memories. it's like this dead-eyed "allen is so stupid" face is different somehow...]
...Hey, Yuu... What exactly did Allen stop you from doing?
His face does something complicated at the question--not the usual prickly "back off" expression, but an odd combination of closed off yet... surprised? It's weird, is all, being around someone who wasn't there to see it all play out, or even in the aftermath to hear the gossip spread like wildfire through the Order, as Kanda is sure it must have. It's even weirder that it's Lavi, someone who's known him much longer than Allen, and more importantly, the one who knows everything about everyone. Kanda wouldn't have talked about it regardless, but he always assumed the Bookmen knew about the Second Exorcist Program and all its sordid details.
Still, Kanda has never been in the habit of opening up, and he wouldn't know how to start even if he wanted to. So, after a long pause as he tries to figure out how to answer, he settles on--]
Running.
[Which doesn't tell Lavi anything he actually wants to know, but it's the best explanation Kanda's got.]
[WHAT A VAGUE ANSWER THAT TELLS HIM NOTHING, but as Lavi has long since learned -- talking to Kanda means more than just waiting to hear what he has to say. it's paying attention to him -- looking at the expression on his face, the curtness of his tone, the pointed silences. there's always more to Kanda than just his words, there always has been.
...so he's not used to coming up short regardless. it's been a while since he has.]
Was this back in Jordan? [damn. what happened in jordan the fck] What else happened there?
No. [HE'S BACK TO THE STINKY "NOAH BASTARDS" FACE] That shitty Forehead Noah knocked me out and took me to the North America branch. They invaded again, with the Earl.
[He's looking at Lavi like "damn you really did miss fucking everything HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN UNCONSCIOUS"
But also his hands curl into fists--which briefly distracts him from this conversation, and he lifts his palm and tugs his glove thingy off to frown at his STILL-OPEN PAPERCUTS AND LEECH BITES]
Still? [Damn he didn't think his healing slowed down THIS MUCH?]
[HELLO DON'T LOOK AT HIM LIKE THAT ALSO DON'T JUST BARE YOUR ARMS... SCANDALOUS....
Lavi moves closer to stare at Kanda's arms too because what's personal space, noting the stupid PAPERCUTS and LEECH BITES, neither of which surprise him because of course Kanda tried ripping down his poster and of course he fell into the stream and got leeched, this dumbass -- hold on a second,
woah this obvious cross-shaped scar, looks so much like another cross-shaped scar on someone else? he immediately grabs Kanda's arm,]
[STOP HE HAS BARE ARMS ALL THE TIME... also damn I can't believe he mysteriously reached into the river and got more leech bites yesterday wow I definitely didn't get mixed up in my threads
Anyway Lavi is very lucky he's on Kanda's shortlist of people allowed to touch him, so even though he makes a "nyeh" face, he lets him grab and look. He is also mentally gauging how they look compared to, like, fifteen minutes ago in his memory, but it doesn't look any worse than it did before.]
Yeah. Not long ago. [How long did he and Johnny even spend looking for Allen I DON'T KNOW]
[this is why people will think they're gay together bc kanda won't let anyone else touch him..... time to open his heart to aventurine
Lavi keeps his hand there, because he's once again distracted by Kanda's answer.
'not long ago.']
...Was it after I went missing?
[kanda never said it in those specific words, but. Lavi can put the pieces together? the fact that he hadn't known where Lavi was, even though he'd been sent on a mission to China with Gramps and Chaoji and Marie -- that Lenalee had cried because of him -- even though she was a continent away. the way their recollections are so different, Kanda apparently remembering so many things that happened that couldn't have in the brief span of Lavi blacking out and then waking up here.
there's a discrepancy here that he truly doesn't like, but it doesn't take a GENIUS to realize that it exists]
But--well. Again, Kanda is the last person in the world who'll sugarcoat anything, so he says it flat out.]
You've been gone for months. At least four, by now.
[Counting the time it took to track down Johnny, and then Allen after that--it might even be closer to five, if he really sat down to do the math.
And Kanda's... not good at showing concern, but he does pay attention, and he knows that expression.]
You really don't remember anything? [Because Kanda's an idiot, but even he can see the logical conclusion of "I was fighting a Noah and blacked out" + "months have gone by that Lavi apparently wasn't aware of"]
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Half-Akuma are just Akuma, in the end.
[The Order probably should've known it was never going to work, but when has that ever stopped them from human experimentation]
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Lavi remembers most of the Order being pretty split on them -- some thinking it was the needed next step, others horrified at using the "enemy's weapons". he remembers Allen's visceral discomfort, even Link's.
but kanda? he didn't seem to have much of a reaction at all to the news, not that Lavi spent much time to observe him before they got sent to their respective missions.... he lingers a little anyway, wondering, but his curiosity spurs him onward. half-akuma are just akuma in the end, huh.....
his thoughts immediately go to Allen, who isn't so much an Akuma but has a whole ass NOAH in him,]
...And Allen? Why is he being hunted?
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But Kanda has never been one to beat around the bush for anything, so.]
I woke up the Noah in him.
[Nevermind that it was manipulation, that it was only a matter of time before this happened, no matter what the Science Section thinks they could've done to slow it down. At the end of the day, he's still the one who lost control, and it was his Innocence that broke the last chains holding the Fourteenth back. If he's going to m̸̳͒a̷̳͝k̵̦͋e̸̫̕ ̴̰͝h̸̫͊ẻ̷͜l̵͉̔p̴̋ͅi̶̭͌n̴̯̄g̸͚̀ ̴͈̕Ȁ̵̜ḻ̵́ḽ̷̄ȩ̸́n̵̠̉ ̴͕̉h̸͍͒ȉ̶̖ś̵͉ ̴̩̄r̵̠͐e̶̖͌ă̴̰s̸͍̏o̷̜̍ṅ̶͈ ̷̙͑f̴̮́ò̸̺ȑ̷̩ ̸̰̈́ĺ̴̗i̸̳͒v̶̪͠į̵̈́n̵̛̥g̵̺̕ atone, then he needs to own that.]
Apparently the Order locked him up, but the other Noah broke him out. Lena saw him, though, and said he took off to deal with it all on his own. Idiot. [Tch] Johnny quit to help him.
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was it that bad? was this something they should have expected?]
Woke him up? How the hell did that happen?
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He was trying to stop me from doing something I would've regretted.
[And Lavi knows Kanda--and Allen, honestly--to be able to picture what that would've looked like.]
The Noah's hatred of Innocence reacted to Mugen.
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...Like when Allen got stabbed by his Innocence.
[IN THE TIMOTHY ArC THAT HE ALSO WASN'T THErE FOr....]
It's just him and Johnny now? With the whole Order after them?
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Kanda doesn't waste time thinking about that, though. There's no timeline in which he would've trusted or cared about the Order enough to do that, so it's a moot point.]
They'll be fine. The beansprout's a slippery little brat, and Johnny will keep him in line. [Since when does Kanda respect Johnny so much LAVI YOU'VE BEEN CHAIR'D FOR SO LONG.] He told me to go back and take care of the Order.
[...? He did, didn't he? Right, yes. He did.
But more importantly:]
If he's the Fourteenth next time we meet, I'll kill him. That hasn't changed.
[It's just that now it's more like mercy, the repayment of a debt, than anything else.]
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also yeah it's actually so weird to hear kanda say something vaguely nice about anyone even if it is johnny, but what's even weirder is that Kanda listened to allen wow,]
And you listened?
[huh........ DID THEIr rELATIONSHIP GrOW STrONGEr BECAUSE OF THEIr STABBING????? WHAT THE FCK oh wait no kanda said he'd kill the fourteenth. he makes a face]
...He'd probably prefer that. Idiot.
[calling other people idiot..........]
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Also the way he immediately bristles]
I have better things to do than follow that idiot around everywhere!
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HE JUST LOOKS AT KANDA WITH THIS hehe FACE]
Yuu..............
[yuu...... (pleading emoji) the friendship.....]
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Hehe.
[DONT HEHE… miraculously he does stop hehe-ing bc this is still first day mg]
So you were nabbed on your way back and I was taken during the fight… Why’s it just us?
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No idea. Akuma were after the beansprout in town, so if I'm here, he should be too. Those Noah bastards might've taken him somewhere else already.
[This whole thing reeks of Noah bullshit, after all?? THERE ARE PENTAGRAMS ON THE GROUND]
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You think they just left us here? Wouldn’t they have just killed us?
[you wish lavi]
If they only care about Allen, then there’s no point keeping us prisoner.
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It's the fastest way to get him here if they couldn't find him.
[DUMBASS BITCH WHO GOES AFTER HIS FRIENDS LIKE A PERSON WITH FEELINGS, EMOTIONS]
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Lavi simply looks at Kanda like he's trying to fit this strangely new? version? of him with all his prior memories. it's like this dead-eyed "allen is so stupid" face is different somehow...]
...Hey, Yuu... What exactly did Allen stop you from doing?
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His face does something complicated at the question--not the usual prickly "back off" expression, but an odd combination of closed off yet... surprised? It's weird, is all, being around someone who wasn't there to see it all play out, or even in the aftermath to hear the gossip spread like wildfire through the Order, as Kanda is sure it must have. It's even weirder that it's Lavi, someone who's known him much longer than Allen, and more importantly, the one who knows everything about everyone. Kanda wouldn't have talked about it regardless, but he always assumed the Bookmen knew about the Second Exorcist Program and all its sordid details.
Still, Kanda has never been in the habit of opening up, and he wouldn't know how to start even if he wanted to. So, after a long pause as he tries to figure out how to answer, he settles on--]
Running.
[Which doesn't tell Lavi anything he actually wants to know, but it's the best explanation Kanda's got.]
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...so he's not used to coming up short regardless. it's been a while since he has.]
Was this back in Jordan? [damn. what happened in jordan the fck] What else happened there?
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[THEIR SECURITY IS SO FUCKING BAD]
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WHAT? HE JUST LOOKS AT KANDA LIKE WHAT THE FCK, WHY ARE YOU TELLING HIM THIS NOW? HIS FACE LIKE 'OKAY. AND THEN WHAT? AND THEN WHAT KANDA????']
Hold on, hold on -- a Noah knocked you out and took you to all the way to America?
[WHAT? WHAT????]
Why?
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But also his hands curl into fists--which briefly distracts him from this conversation, and he lifts his palm and tugs his glove thingy off to frown at his STILL-OPEN PAPERCUTS AND LEECH BITES]
Still? [Damn he didn't think his healing slowed down THIS MUCH?]
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Lavi moves closer to stare at Kanda's arms too because what's personal space, noting the stupid PAPERCUTS and LEECH BITES, neither of which surprise him because of course Kanda tried ripping down his poster and of course he fell into the stream and got leeched, this dumbass -- hold on a second,
woah this obvious cross-shaped scar, looks so much like another cross-shaped scar on someone else? he immediately grabs Kanda's arm,]
Yuu -- this is... Your Innocence crystallized?
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Anyway Lavi is very lucky he's on Kanda's shortlist of people allowed to touch him, so even though he makes a "nyeh" face, he lets him grab and look. He is also mentally gauging how they look compared to, like, fifteen minutes ago in his memory, but it doesn't look any worse than it did before.]
Yeah. Not long ago. [How long did he and Johnny even spend looking for Allen I DON'T KNOW]
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Lavi keeps his hand there, because he's once again distracted by Kanda's answer.
'not long ago.']
...Was it after I went missing?
[kanda never said it in those specific words, but. Lavi can put the pieces together? the fact that he hadn't known where Lavi was, even though he'd been sent on a mission to China with Gramps and Chaoji and Marie -- that Lenalee had cried because of him -- even though she was a continent away. the way their recollections are so different, Kanda apparently remembering so many things that happened that couldn't have in the brief span of Lavi blacking out and then waking up here.
there's a discrepancy here that he truly doesn't like, but it doesn't take a GENIUS to realize that it exists]
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But--well. Again, Kanda is the last person in the world who'll sugarcoat anything, so he says it flat out.]
You've been gone for months. At least four, by now.
[Counting the time it took to track down Johnny, and then Allen after that--it might even be closer to five, if he really sat down to do the math.
And Kanda's... not good at showing concern, but he does pay attention, and he knows that expression.]
You really don't remember anything? [Because Kanda's an idiot, but even he can see the logical conclusion of "I was fighting a Noah and blacked out" + "months have gone by that Lavi apparently wasn't aware of"]
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